I'm still a teenager, so I think I'm allowed to continue enjoying something called "teenage angst," (though I suppose I am in my twentieth year
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*laughs* Only 11...you're crazy. Then again I'm crazy too with all of the stuff that I'm applying for, and apparently more of them get paid than I thought.
And oddly enough I've been feeling very similar about romance lately, but lately I've been feeling that I just ask too much sometimes.
But when I begin to doubt the entire male gender, (ex-boyfriends, male friends, friend's boyfriends, certain sperm contributers, and the like), I think of Kit. He has to be one of my best friends ever. There's no romantic interest and if there was I wouldn't deserve him. He calls me quite often, has as much interest in maintaining our friendship as I do AND I can talk to him about most anything.
Therefore, I think of his existence as not an exception to the rule but a glimmer of hope for the entire gender.
crazy? perhaps, but it's funny how fast "crazy" things become mundane. After a 65-hour work week, to have a six-hour shift and then a five-hour shift later on in the same day feels like nothing.
Heh...I'm with you guys, and irrevocably jaded by my experience with Derek. I want a wonderful relationship again, but it all turned so sour that I wonder if I'm incapable of having the kind of relationship with someone that my parents have with each other. They're incredibly in love and are best friends. I had that for a while, but after three years realized that it wasn't to be. I guess my inhibition right now is to go through the same thing. I'd always thought of love as being something that happened once, and I'm conflicted by the thought that I want to love again and by the deep inner fear that it does only happen once, and that was it.
only fall in love once? are you kidding??? Ideally that's how it would be; you'd fall in love with someone, marry that person, both of you would remain faithful and decent, honest people while married. Thus you would continue working at your marriage, and it would change and grow, but you'd always stay in love with each other and never fall in love with other people.
But, no matter how long you date a person, if there is no long-term commitment like that, how can you possibly expect them to be your only love? It's like, yeah, you're in love, but only on certain levels. There are other levels that you haven't even begun to tap into. At least, that's what I think :) I have no doubt that you can fall in love again. Heavens, I think that if even I can fall in love once, (and I'm convinced I can), then anyone can fall in love twice,lol!
"...what kind of person is a boy who will only talk to a girl so long as there is romantic interest..." Yea, I've talk to Tyler about this. If we do break up, he thinks that he won't be able to be friends with me, but I disagreed completely. Yes it'll be awkward at first, and maybe we won't talk for a bit, but I think that we could still remain friends of some sort. He doesn't think he can do it at all...which sort of puzzles me. Either he loves me so much that it'll hurt him to talk to me, or that he doesn't want me as a friend but a girlfriend...hm. Maybe it's a guy thing? Or is that just an excuse for them?
Boys make life complicated.
Feel better Emily! Drink lots of hot stuff and keep bundled up. :]
Emily, I really hope you're wrong about guys being scum...though, I'm living with the two worst guys and the guys at CU can be crude sometimes but there's at least one guy there that is *not* scum! I might be jaded myself because of never having a boyfriend...
Call if you're not working and want to hang out a little...the lake's being fixed up soon and my room is habitable...almost ;) plus I want to paint it...
You'll find some guy who's not scum and it's ok to be teenish still!!
I'm free tomorrow (Thursday), before 5, and Saturday, after 2 this week. The good thing about having Thursday morning off is that my family won't be around! I feel like I have to see people or being back in New Hampshire will be pointless. Seriously, if I'm not seeing ORHS allumni, it's like "why not just stay in Utah?" But, so, yeah, if you're free tomorrow morning it'd be an opportune time to come over my house and hang out, since Jenny and I will be the only ones around...
(actually, that'd go for anyone in the area who wants to hang out)
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And oddly enough I've been feeling very similar about romance lately, but lately I've been feeling that I just ask too much sometimes.
But when I begin to doubt the entire male gender, (ex-boyfriends, male friends, friend's boyfriends, certain sperm contributers, and the like), I think of Kit. He has to be one of my best friends ever. There's no romantic interest and if there was I wouldn't deserve him. He calls me quite often, has as much interest in maintaining our friendship as I do AND I can talk to him about most anything.
Therefore, I think of his existence as not an exception to the rule but a glimmer of hope for the entire gender.
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But, no matter how long you date a person, if there is no long-term commitment like that, how can you possibly expect them to be your only love? It's like, yeah, you're in love, but only on certain levels. There are other levels that you haven't even begun to tap into. At least, that's what I think :) I have no doubt that you can fall in love again. Heavens, I think that if even I can fall in love once, (and I'm convinced I can), then anyone can fall in love twice,lol!
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Boys make life complicated.
Feel better Emily! Drink lots of hot stuff and keep bundled up. :]
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Call if you're not working and want to hang out a little...the lake's being fixed up soon and my room is habitable...almost ;) plus I want to paint it...
You'll find some guy who's not scum and it's ok to be teenish still!!
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(actually, that'd go for anyone in the area who wants to hang out)
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