I'm so fucking confused. I hate this. I haven't slept in a couple days, i haven't told any body though. I'm not happy any more. I'm not trying to be the bitchy Martyr, but fuck man, its just not fun for me any more. At least the summer was kewl. I'm talking about her. I'm desinigrating without her. Being friends is all fine and dandy but ( Read more... )

The past days have seemed to pass like wind. It never seems to stop for anyone nor anything ( Read more... )

Well i've resently read a journal of one of my friends and the one line that i would like to take with me is "i wish somebody could give me the all anwsers." the journal it self was much more meaningful but htat line i like, so now you get to hear my anolytical bullshit for a while. i've always thought that life would be much easier if we did have ( Read more... )

Lately My life has been disignigrating from underneath me. Everything i know is deciding to go negative clor on me and change what i thought i knew. I hate my new school not for the fact that it sucks cause it doesn't but for the fact that it is tearing me and marina in two. That has been on my mind lately as well. Infact it is the reason im ( Read more... )

Well i haven't done this in a while so forgive me if i speak of shit that you are yet to hear.

So........... i'me on a torturing bed of chains being torn in each direction each chain is like an emotion that could possible describe the shit i feel.

Lately me and the Hobbit(marina) have been trying are hardest to get in touch with each other but i' ( Read more... )

So today i woke up at 4 in the afternoon. One of the parental units was bitching. I then realize im the coolest fucking person ever.

5 Minutes later..............

I truly suck. oh well im a little nervious about high school but im just a big pussy i guess. Of course no journal would be complete without a reference to the midget named marina. "her ( Read more... )

Ok. to begin I have found full purpose in my life and all is well and this journal doesn't seem as stupid as before.

I would first like to point out that life is pretty bitchin'

Yeah, Im now a ful fledged freshmen. And do you know what that means children. Anybody, any of you littles water ballons filled with organs that have been named the ( Read more... )

Sorry to say, but this will be my last entry ever. I realize that by catogorizing my thoughts, emtions,and overall outlook on life, I leave nothing to myself. Unfortunetly I cannot end this journal with a positive note. Actually am writting my most depressing. I realize that life is too short to be writting in a fucking retared journal log each ( Read more... )

Wow things aren't going good for us lately. to think a week ago i though my life was perfect. but since then i've lost my girlfreind, my grades blow, im getting suspended, my mom has cancer i.ve lost one of my best friends, and now there probaly gonna kick marina out of the school. she doesn't know this but today after school i saw mr. oaksenan(the ( Read more... )

My last journal i forgot to mension . that i was confused out of my mind today

. today me and the hobbitwent to the home. i went with her because i didn't want her to walk alone. to make it seem like she didn't have any friends.

so i went with her and we went to the home and we are acting like we never broke up wicth kinda messes with my head.  ( Read more... )