(un)happy

[skeets]

I like thisI have never been the ebullient person, overflowing with volume and excitement. I enjoy things, but my expression of that isn't always pronounced. Anxiety, ADD, and Depression are words that loom in my history

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[freyis]

Thanks for sharing this; I feel similarly. I can definitely be excited, joyful, ecstatic, or having a great day, but I rarely would call myself happy. I do the same thing with people asking me how I am, it's always I'm alright or okay, never good or great or happy.

I especially like this: "I don't know if I'm happy. But, I have things and activities and people in my life that make me feel fulfilled, and that's pretty great. I feel a lot of gratitude about that."

That sums it up rather well for me too.

[sarapada]

I feel like a failure a lot of the time because I'm not "happy", because I have so much in my life to be happy about. But pursuing a meaningful, compelling, busy, beautiful lie seems so much more doable (and desirable! and interesting!) than a "happy" one.

[december_clouds]

I like that comic too, it does sum it up well. I like "interested" and what you wrote about having things that make you feel fulfilled.

I'm not sure if I've had a happy period, or that kind of thing. I was a bundle of anxiety in my childhood. I was always scared of something.

Now things are generally stable. That's good, that's really good.

[_dilate_]

That is such a nice Oatmeal. I am always hearing those same things- not enthusiastic, not happy. I always think about how it's like facebook: we see the highlight reel for everyone else but we have to watch all the b-roll for ourselves. It's easy to think others are happier.

I'm dating a guy right now who is the more extreme example of this I have ever seen. Thanks for reminding me not to shame him about his lack of "happy' or "emoting". I do tease about it and I shouldn't.

Nothing wrong with any of us.