blame it on a simple twist of fate

[skeletaltime]

House hunting on craigslist now that it's for certain we'll be moving back to town in the very near future

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[antigraphic]

Sometimes the familiar is welcoming, but progress ain't all that bad either.

I fail to believe that we are incapable of being "cured" of our vices, depressions, anxieties. I am not my bipolar disorder or drug addictions. I am not my selfishness and I am not my promiscuity. Those things I let run my life at times, and it is mostly for self destructive reasons. I have, for periods of time, chosen to not give in to the devil on my shoulder, I have felt actual control of my life, rather than the semblance of control I create with my "issues." I think its finding the right puzzle pieces of life (who, what, where, therapy, psych drugs) together in a way that gives you access to your mental and emotional tool chest, so you can find the solution that works best more often than not.

[johnnyfavorite]

dang. if livejournal had a 'like' button, i'd be pressing it right now. best of luck towards future progress.

[antigraphic]

Thanks. My shrink kept telling me that she was confused by the combination of self-awareness but lack of positive change that I would take in my life, and I still am struggling with that, some days feel better and closer, and at times I find a reason to take a hundred steps backwards instead. I am starting to think that its my constant drive towards either having real control or giving myself the illusion of control while actually speeding 100mph into a dead end.