because i have an over-inflated sense of self worth.
here's how it's gonna work. right now i want to do nothing. i don't want to think. i don't want to expend a lot of energy partying. i want to sit and stare at a wall. i want to sleep. i still haven't caught up on sleep for the show where i worked every night from 10- at least 3. i'd enjoy seeing people. but i will not go out of my way to organize get togethers or provide transportation. i don't even know if i have a car anymore. normally i'd flip a shit about that but I'M TOO TIRED TO CARE ABOUT LIL' RED! if that says anything to you.
so, if you want to spend time with me over this break, here is what you have to do. you have to organize it. tell me the date. tell me the time. tell me the venue. tell me what we're doing. "hey kate, let's hang out sometime. no really," is not good enough. that puts all the pressure on me and i'm just gonna drop it. if you want to organize an everyone-is-home-for-the-holidays party, fine. i'll be there. but i'm not gonna host that. my house in concord is for 4 things:
1) the completion of last year's star wars experience (1 year ago today, i think) must have attended last year
2) a rugby party (maybe) that's right. i offered an empty house to my captains. stupid? absolutely.
3) those times when someone, or a small contingent of someones, randomly shows up at my house, often accompanied by 1 or more pints of ben and jerry's
4) me sleeping, eating good food, and sitting on my ass
i will only play host in the first two situations. if you're the sort of person who can pull off #3, you should know me well enough and know your way around my house well enough that playing host is not necessary.
this post may sound harsh or like i don't want to hang out with you. that is not the case at all. can you read the post? then i'll chill with you. i'm just not willing to stress myself out trying to figure out stuff to do, organizing transportation, or playing host. this is not my idea of vacation. so let's assume that i will not call you up bubbling with energy, i do not have a car, and i do not want to expend energy being stupid. good talk. p.s. new years is not an option so don't suggest it. k, thanks. bye.
-Kate, Ma$e, Etch, Firebomb, Katie Etch