::should've known that every high has a low::

it's amazing how my mood can go from nothing, to everything. not out of no where, but from the things that affect me the most. whether upset or depressed, whatever state i am in, i always know i would be lifted off the ground in a matter of time. only a matter of time. and that feeling makes up for all the hurt and pain gone through to get to that ( Read more... )

going through all the bullshit and ignorance of people, having to deal with it all...the lies, the tears, the fucking pain. through it all, picking up the pieces, and trying to make through it alright. mistakes don't mean a thing if you don't regret them. and maybe you could learn from them and keep your promises that things will change. jen called ( Read more... )

the "old me" was the person that didn't think anyone called me names, thought everyone had good in them. until recently i've realized that so many ruthless people are so fucking ignorant to have to call me or anyone things, to make themselves feel better. and if anyone has to do that in their own part, especially when they dont even know who the ( Read more... )

tonight was the shiiit =)...the only exception is that i didn't get to see audrey [[i <3 you]] kick some 8th grade ass...grrr. maybe next time. it's so tyte to be able to chill with people who are nice to you and make you feel good about yourself. eh. i really want nigel's mom as a therapist. hell [[fuckin]] yeah. i never knew moms could be...so... ( Read more... )

yesterday- "valentines day". uhh. i guess it is just a holiday. just like any other day. while hearing everyone's desire to have someone with them on that day, makes me sad that what i was supposed to do, didn't work out well either. and if any of it was my fault, i tried all i could to express my remorse in letters. i guess it didn't impact enough ( Read more... )

i've been contemplating, even just the past few hours, that life has so much meaning to it. i tell myself that i have been through a lot, that i believe in life, and everything it has to offer. the more i concentrate on it, i am totally mislead. there are invisible things that come by in feelings and thoughts. nonetheless, there are more important ( Read more... )

hope from close, yet distant thoughts and dreams are bringing me up from where i was before. i'm in such better moods, and my mind is open. there is a clear path ahead of me [as though it seems for now], and all i can do is hope that it stays that way ( Read more... )

before you slip into unconsciousness
i'd like to have another kiss
another flashing chance at bliss
another kiss...another kissthe days are bright and filled with pain ( Read more... )

this used to be so easy....

when everything you want is right at your fingertips....

but i guess i'm short, because I can never seem to reach.

all i want is for you to be here.