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[x]I hurt: myself.
[x]I love: my friends.
[x]I hate: how i treat myself, how i feel, how superficial i can be, getting jealous.
[x]I cry: when i get disappointed.
[x]I fear: truth, death, faith, closeness.
[x]I hope: i won't regret to make this day.
[x]I feel alone: when i refuse to communicate.
[x]I kill: dreams.
[x]I talk: too much with not saying a lot.
[x]I break: cameras, hearts, faces.
[x]I see: what i want right in front of me.
[x]I smell: tobacco and peppermint.
[x]I taste: cough drops.
[x]I remember: that this is possible.
[x]I hold: your heart and your tiny hands.
[x]I hide: behind superficiality.
[x]I pray: that this is not subsistence exsistance.
[x]I walk: distances.
[x]I drive: people away.
[x]I read: words that breathe inspiration.
[x]I breathe: to live.
[x]I play: games with my own heart.
[x]I miss: mikey.
[x]I touch: dark eyes.
[x]I learn: that i've learned nothing.
[x]I feel: like i am ready to explore the truth.
[x]I know: i will get away.
[x]I said: i don't want to take your way of life away.
[x]I dream: of sailing away to getting married where the drums are tom tom.
[x]I have: little toes.
[x]I want: to make him laugh.
[x]I feel: nonsensical.
[x]I need: to swim in the ocean.
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o. First name: natalie.
o. Middle name: megan.
o. Last name: baugh.
o. Nickname(s): ali, dr. z, balls.
o. Age: eighteen.
o. Birthday: september twenty-third.
o. Height: five feet and two and three-fourths inches. (5' 2.75")
o. Hair color: reddish brownish.
o. Eye color: brownish blackish.
o. Glasses: one pair got obliterated at a show. the other pair is somewhere in my room.
o. Contacts: no.
o. Braces: no.
o.Hair short or long: short.
o. Where you were born: norfolk.
o. Where you now live: norfolk.
o. Astrology sign: virgo/libra.
o. Chinese zodiac sign: i don't know.
o. Bad habits: i don't know.
o. Piercing: six. and possibly another soon.
o. Tattoos: one.
ETC.
o. Are you still in school: yeah.
o. Current grade: i'm a college freshman.
o. Favorite grade: i hated all of my schooling.
o. Worst grade: fourth, ninth, tenth.
o. Favorite teacher: mrs. funk, ms. blumenthal, mr. garvin, dr. welch. DR. PATRICK LANG. <3
o. Worst teacher: i've had some bad ones.
o. Favorite subject: photography, history, english.
o. Worst subject: math and science of any kind.
o. Buy or bring lunch: bring it.
o. School sports: NORVIEW GOLF, WHAT?
o. High school: norview.
o. School activities: i did forensics, drama, debate, and academic challenge. nerd, for life.
o. Popular or what: i got a superlative. i was known.
o. Favorite memory: i've had a few that still bring a smile to my face.
o. Worst memory: i've had a few.
PRIVATE LIFE
o. Boyfriend/girlfriend: no.
o. Crush: yes.
o. Do you love anyone right now: not romantically.
o. Have you ever been in love: yes.
o. How many hearts have you broken: one or none.
o. How many people broke your heart: more than enough.
o. So what's your bf/gf like: not applicable.
o. Do you go more by looks or personality: when it comes down to it, personality.
o. Ever kiss a friend: yes.
o. Are you still friends: yes.
o. Do you smoke: no.
o. How about weed: no.
o. Acid: no.
o. How about a little ecstasy: no.
o. Crack, heroin, anything else: no.
THE LAST THING
o. You ate: lunch with my dad.
o. You drank: hot chocolate.
o. The last place you went: barnes & noble.
o. Last thing you bought: some stuff for school.
o. Last person you saw: sarah and jason.
o. Last person you talked to: alaina.
o. Last song you heard: i hate myself - "care"
this was the worst survey ever.
i went to school and it really isn't so bad. i'm not stoked on it or anything, but i'll be able to stand it for a little while. my new testament class isn't too bad so far. i really like dr. wansink. my ancient drama class is really not my scene, but i'll survive. kyle is in that class and my opinion of him has drastically changed. ethics & health care is my jam, dr. hultgren is my jam. dr. lang is so cute. and southern lit with bellamy is a fucking drag.
but about kyle. i have a crush. he sits in front of me in class and today he walked behind me and placed his hands on my back and elbow and i just sort of stopped walking as i was a little surprised. so i muttered an "excuse me" or an "i'm sorry" and he said "it's no problem." so of course i swooned. he held the door for me when we were leaving class and again, i swooned. so after ethics & health care, i bumped into him again and he waved, smiled, and blushed. i died. i blushed so hardcore and had the hugest grin on my face. this is not because i have a crush on kyle, but because prior to today, i didn't think he knew of my existance. i saw him every tuesday and thursday last semester and he never said hi or smiled or anything. so today was really nice and different. and he's also very studious it seems. and how hot is a nerd? very. i'm sure this crush will pass, but it's nice nonetheless.
sarah and jason want me to holler at jason's friend, george. just because i like some indie and wear scarves. no.
[x]I love: my friends.
[x]I hate: how i treat myself, how i feel, how superficial i can be, getting jealous.
[x]I cry: when i get disappointed.
[x]I fear: truth, death, faith, closeness.
[x]I hope: i won't regret to make this day.
[x]I feel alone: when i refuse to communicate.
[x]I kill: dreams.
[x]I talk: too much with not saying a lot.
[x]I break: cameras, hearts, faces.
[x]I see: what i want right in front of me.
[x]I smell: tobacco and peppermint.
[x]I taste: cough drops.
[x]I remember: that this is possible.
[x]I hold: your heart and your tiny hands.
[x]I hide: behind superficiality.
[x]I pray: that this is not subsistence exsistance.
[x]I walk: distances.
[x]I drive: people away.
[x]I read: words that breathe inspiration.
[x]I breathe: to live.
[x]I play: games with my own heart.
[x]I miss: mikey.
[x]I touch: dark eyes.
[x]I learn: that i've learned nothing.
[x]I feel: like i am ready to explore the truth.
[x]I know: i will get away.
[x]I said: i don't want to take your way of life away.
[x]I dream: of sailing away to getting married where the drums are tom tom.
[x]I have: little toes.
[x]I want: to make him laugh.
[x]I feel: nonsensical.
[x]I need: to swim in the ocean.
-
o. First name: natalie.
o. Middle name: megan.
o. Last name: baugh.
o. Nickname(s): ali, dr. z, balls.
o. Age: eighteen.
o. Birthday: september twenty-third.
o. Height: five feet and two and three-fourths inches. (5' 2.75")
o. Hair color: reddish brownish.
o. Eye color: brownish blackish.
o. Glasses: one pair got obliterated at a show. the other pair is somewhere in my room.
o. Contacts: no.
o. Braces: no.
o.Hair short or long: short.
o. Where you were born: norfolk.
o. Where you now live: norfolk.
o. Astrology sign: virgo/libra.
o. Chinese zodiac sign: i don't know.
o. Bad habits: i don't know.
o. Piercing: six. and possibly another soon.
o. Tattoos: one.
ETC.
o. Are you still in school: yeah.
o. Current grade: i'm a college freshman.
o. Favorite grade: i hated all of my schooling.
o. Worst grade: fourth, ninth, tenth.
o. Favorite teacher: mrs. funk, ms. blumenthal, mr. garvin, dr. welch. DR. PATRICK LANG. <3
o. Worst teacher: i've had some bad ones.
o. Favorite subject: photography, history, english.
o. Worst subject: math and science of any kind.
o. Buy or bring lunch: bring it.
o. School sports: NORVIEW GOLF, WHAT?
o. High school: norview.
o. School activities: i did forensics, drama, debate, and academic challenge. nerd, for life.
o. Popular or what: i got a superlative. i was known.
o. Favorite memory: i've had a few that still bring a smile to my face.
o. Worst memory: i've had a few.
PRIVATE LIFE
o. Boyfriend/girlfriend: no.
o. Crush: yes.
o. Do you love anyone right now: not romantically.
o. Have you ever been in love: yes.
o. How many hearts have you broken: one or none.
o. How many people broke your heart: more than enough.
o. So what's your bf/gf like: not applicable.
o. Do you go more by looks or personality: when it comes down to it, personality.
o. Ever kiss a friend: yes.
o. Are you still friends: yes.
o. Do you smoke: no.
o. How about weed: no.
o. Acid: no.
o. How about a little ecstasy: no.
o. Crack, heroin, anything else: no.
THE LAST THING
o. You ate: lunch with my dad.
o. You drank: hot chocolate.
o. The last place you went: barnes & noble.
o. Last thing you bought: some stuff for school.
o. Last person you saw: sarah and jason.
o. Last person you talked to: alaina.
o. Last song you heard: i hate myself - "care"
this was the worst survey ever.
i went to school and it really isn't so bad. i'm not stoked on it or anything, but i'll be able to stand it for a little while. my new testament class isn't too bad so far. i really like dr. wansink. my ancient drama class is really not my scene, but i'll survive. kyle is in that class and my opinion of him has drastically changed. ethics & health care is my jam, dr. hultgren is my jam. dr. lang is so cute. and southern lit with bellamy is a fucking drag.
but about kyle. i have a crush. he sits in front of me in class and today he walked behind me and placed his hands on my back and elbow and i just sort of stopped walking as i was a little surprised. so i muttered an "excuse me" or an "i'm sorry" and he said "it's no problem." so of course i swooned. he held the door for me when we were leaving class and again, i swooned. so after ethics & health care, i bumped into him again and he waved, smiled, and blushed. i died. i blushed so hardcore and had the hugest grin on my face. this is not because i have a crush on kyle, but because prior to today, i didn't think he knew of my existance. i saw him every tuesday and thursday last semester and he never said hi or smiled or anything. so today was really nice and different. and he's also very studious it seems. and how hot is a nerd? very. i'm sure this crush will pass, but it's nice nonetheless.
sarah and jason want me to holler at jason's friend, george. just because i like some indie and wear scarves. no.