nudge

[skikkelse]

seeing as it is 2:14 in the morning and i have just dyed my hair red but not very well i fear and i'm waiting for it to dry and i'm tired of reading and i don't want to watch elaina play grand theft auto and i have no cigarettes because i want to quit and i haven't written a dang word in so long because i don't feel the urge to write when i'm happy

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[heartpump]

reading about your life is like stretching to me.

[subsoil]

parts of this that cracked me up: i was so in love with leo + good one + and a girl took off her shirt before they even came onstage + i got pretty goth about it.

i kinda miss this place, yknow dude? i don't even know if it's just being happier than we were before (tho god i hope we're all happier than we were before!). for me at least, the prospect of writing about my life at all seems exhausting as fuck, LET ALONE having it visible, exposed. i tried to do this survey thing here too, just now, just to post as a comment, & even THAT was like OH GOD HOWEVER COULD I EXPLAIN melodrama in my head. deleting & trying again, & shaking my head.

anyway i'm glad you still show up sometimes, & i'm glad your boyfriend is awesome & you don't want kids (high five). nod to "discipline," too; all my shit's up in the air right now, but this year i get to (have to i think?) learn how to be disciplined, to really really work, even if i don't quite know what my work is. i think jobs are mostly easy, but learning work is goddamn hard.