if it's ever this clear. let me say it once.just let me turn the amps way up. so you can hear noth ing. never is all. let me run around. if it's a different time and a different place to be ( Read more... )

And the truth is I’ve been dreaming of some tired tranquil place where the weather won’t get trapped inside my bones.

i don't know what it was about leaving work from the back door with lauren and us both noticing as we brushed the snow off my car that we really liked the warm snow that had and was still falling. and i don't know what it was about my drive home that i enjoyed so much more then the nite before of driving home and that i will like more then driving ( Read more... )

i want the bare feet of summer, or, the sweatshirt of fall.

she doesn't have to say it to my face for me to know. i don't know if over hearing it on the phone was any better. it would've been better left unsaid. but the truth hurts. and i am hurt. it is a kick in the ass you could say to find out what your mom really thinks of you. and what's worse is she doesn't even know half of who i am. she only knows ( Read more... )

so sick so sick of being tired and oh so tired of being sick.

it just felt too wrong to delete this. even though i never write in mine i still check it just because it is rouine from last year. and because of last year is why i wanted to not have this. oh well even though im not going to want to remember i still will in the back of my mind. i want it gone but it just wont leave. and it's messing up what i ( Read more... )

awh. i just keep thinking about how cute he is. i have a little mental picture. now i have a few things cut out for me. one. don't be a shy bastard. two. get this kid to hang out with me. becauuuuuuse. i want to hang out with him. and break him out of his shyness. woo woooo.

i wonder how far i could get on a full tank of gas.

so for the time being, i'm being patient. and amidst this bitterness. if you'll just consider this-even if it don't make sense. all the time-give it time.

i miss it all.