i want to have nice arms, they are so destroyed, i want so much to go back and have looked after them

i think its gonna take a long time forme to understand talk about or except whats happened in this past year.

if i havent lost weight in the morning i'm going to take drastic actions

I have broken up from work for 6weeks, thank god! i am exhausted and can t wait to destroy my sleeping patterns and watch alot of films, smoke alot drink alot and write some music ( Read more... )

still fat but going down, going down evryday, feeling strong, only keeping fruit and veg down, excersizing a few times a week, loving strawberries :D

I just feel terrible. Broke with matt has been hard mainly because we get on so well but he leaves me alone and i need someone who is more emotionally supportive. I feel sick alot and tearful and lonely. I seem to have lost my friends, but its not that i can face seeing anyone anyway.i had fun in prague for new year, a few tears when i was hammered ( Read more... )

times like this, the pit of my stomach aches, i have lost 6 pounds officially from the docs yay ( Read more... )

my stomach no longer allows me to keep chinese down, i think its greesy foods i get cramps and im always sick, god im ending up so goddam fussy with food,im going to be an annoying, does it have blah in it customer, can i be arsed to think about food like that forever!!!!!!!!

i think im ready for a crash
a crash of emotions
shattering the floor
like crystals

summer is feeling good, work is fun, playing in the sun with beautiful special needs kids and being paid for it is amazing. im tanning my arms they still show scars but i dont know what i expected! im eating less than normal but in a normal way, like breakfast then one sandwich with fruit then dinner THE END and im swimming, so i hope to loose some ( Read more... )