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So i think it is about time that I update. Holidays have flown past and in one more week i enter year 11.
With promises that this holidays would be the best and no one would ever forget them, they started. Bits of them have been good and bits have been crushingly bad. Take for example New Years with the girls.. + jebediah + fireworks +lots of dancing.. a night that will go down in the books as THE BEST then slipping down to the other end of the scale, realising that one of my best friends was not with us all the time ... and crying about missing her house and the sundays that I had spent there, and the floor boards on her roof and not doing anything in particular, just chillin.
There were a few major events this holidays that the other days have formed around. These being
- Going to Darwin
- New years eve
- Camping with Charlotte
- Bunbury trip
Darwin was good, but not the best. It was awesome to spend time with my brother who has now moved out and stuff. We got along really well, which is always a plus. The only downside i guess was being out of my comfort zone, not feeling very well most of the time and hate to say it missing home. Other than that swimming under waterfalls and jumping crocodiles and dinner at the warf was lovely.
Last minute New Years plans (made while i was in Darwin) came together. Although the feeling that your best friend is angry at you is not a good one. Mix ups and shamozzles meant that i stressed out ALOT. but hey, 3 o'clock morning phone calls confirmed no hard feelings. So in the end we went to Gloster Park. The night was awesome , with no i.d checks, bands, the killers inbetween sets, dancing, fireworks and hugs all round. Not one that i will forget in a hurry.
Camping with Charlotte was good. Very good. We listened to a whole lot of Ben Folds, and reminised about Phantom Planet from the year before. The time we spent together was really good, and i realised just how close i am to Char. I guess i always just took our friendship for granted.. but she is one person that i completely trust and that means heaps to me.
Bunbury trip no. 2 came next. All of us minus Calum (due to illness) headed down south again. So much fun. Seriously i love that crew. We celebrated Kelly's birthday in style with lotsa of good music and meeting her Bunners friends. After they all left the Perthians had lots of drinks out the back and layed under the stars, talking about things (with lots of group hugs and Tristan screaming funny stuff)What is it that maks me feel so compltely right when i'm around them? Sometimes i just sit back and feel like crying because everything just clicks. I'm not sure wether its because im so happy or the fact that i feel i dont deserve them. I swear, i can't explain it properly but.Kelly and her chicken pie and knowing exactly what i mean even when i make so sense. Charlotte and talking for hours and never being angry and being here for me ALWAYS. Gabs for being a giraffe with me. Reece for always putting up with me and saying cute things while lying on the grass. Luke for hugging me and telling me all his secrets. Tristan for memories and being funny and realising that we are drunk together and realising that 10 years ago we were probably out playing street hockey together. Calum for sitting in science with me , talking about music with me, having me at his house for god knows how long in one day, for taking me to see christmas lights.
I guess that was the only way i could put it.
Other than that stuff, there has been a suprise party for kelly. a lot of shopping hehe. Rachels goodbye. hanging out with reece. hanging out with francis. going out on the boat. going out on Mel's boat. making new friends. realising that i am going into year 11. realising that im not ready. Beach. and lots of other things.
One thing that scares me alot is the fact that i am going to be his age. 2 years later and i am his fucking age. Now really thats kinda sad you now, that i still think about it. I don't feel so big (but he seemed so big). It just kinda freaks me out. I think of one of the boys in my year and a girl in year 9 and it all seems so damn wrong... i guess its just been playing on my mind abit.
So whats to look forward to in the new year??? Big day out. Ben folds. No science. New people. Aus day. Having Sunday morning free. Chicken pie. Getting my L's. Being a computer geek. Grape fights. Bunbury with the crew. Being older. Boyfriend. Moving houses. Pool. AUTUMN.
Although there's everything to look forward to, I AM SCARED. Mostly about schoool, but also about leaving things behind.
everything is going by so fast.
Can't freeze it, Can't need it
Can't keep it, Can't deal with it