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Ok 1st off, yes I'm listening to Hale but it's actually rather fitting in a way, almost exactly eerily enough lol Ok so this update is going to solely concern my first love Aka Jayden. Most of you know about him blah blah well I saw him today, kinda ran into him (literally) I really must watch where I'm going but meh I was thinking.
I was looking all sophistocated and shit today lol Had a cute black suit on and an even cuter shirt (don't ask I was just feelin it this morning) and I was walking through the city just strolling, browsing the usual. I was craving for starbucks :p call it obsession but yeah, so deep in thought I got a shock when somebody just banged into me, or maybe I bumped into them ya know whatever. And I muttered apologies because I don't like talking to randoms but it was Jay, looking as fine as ever lol
We started talking which is odd, recently we seem to just stay away from eachother, though that's more my fault, out of sight out of mind. Somehow we ended up near the fountains near starbucks so he told me to sit and not run away for once, with his stupid grin *sigh* so I did and he came back out with 2 caramel Frapps *big cheesy grin* He always knows exactly what I'm craving. We sat by the fountains (it's just perfect there on a nice sunny day) Maybe it's my love for water but it just seemed so surreal.
We got past the niceties, how've you been blah blah blah and then he brought up how strange it is that we were together for so long and yet now we rarely make an effort to see eachother. I didn't really know what to say, which is odd, everyone knows I have verbal diahorrea the majority of the time, but not really around him anymore. It's strange how complicated things can get.
We decided to walk around, grab some icecream and just be how we always were around eachother, so comfortable, forget all the shit that's happened and it was really nice. Just hanging out and goofing around like we used to. Then he decides to drop the bombshell, I mean I knew that it was coming but ignorance is bliss right? He's moving, and not anywhere near, he's moving farrr away. His mom decided it's time to just go. I knew she wanted to move and I know he'll follow his mom anywhere but it's still not a nice thought ya know. He was like 'you know, we'll be in the airport on the same day, same time or close enough because I know you always get there early'. I was like 'wait, how do you know when I'm flying out?'. He just smiled his goofy smile again lol it's irritating yet adorable. He finally spoke after a little while of me being my usual 'tell me or else' self and he said 'you forget I speak to Hallie a lot too' lol I nudged him 'so you've been checking up on me?' and he smirked yet again 'Always. *Sigh* he's just so gahhh.
We carried on walking around and this was somewhat our conversation from that point:
Me: so we're leaving on the same day, though you for good?
Him: It looks like it
Me: Did you plan to leave the same time as me?
Him: No, that was just a happy accident *smirk*
Me: sure it was, stalker
Him: Of course
Me: But seriously, it's kind of depressing
Him: Yeah....Do you think we'll be one of 'those' couples?
Me: What kind?
Him: You know, that whole tearful goodbye that people watch and point at *smirks again*
Me: Only if you go extra sensitive on me
I'd summerize the rest but I dunno, tired?
We walked around for what seemed like hours and it probably was really. When it came to time to go it was kinda sad again lol gosh and to think I was happy to update today. He hugged me *shivers* so built lol yes I copped a feel, I have a right to do that lol and it was such a moment lol right there by the fountains and he was like (summerized kind of I guess)
Him: I'm gonna miss you, you know that right?
Me: Uh-huh
Him: I'll catch up to you at the airport though, departure lounge *laughs*
Me: How romantic
Him: I know right? Romeo right here
For some reason I just latched onto him, I dunno why, I wasn't thinking 'yes im gonna squeeze the dear life out of him' but I did it and man I teared up, how sad is that?! I felt so stupid. and I was mumbling into his chest lol talk about big baby but yes that's me
Anyway I'm rambling, I'll just get to the good stuff. He kissed me, yes after god knows how long he did and it was just whoa. I was shocked and whatnot but who cares, this is Jay we're talking about. Just wonderful, though sad because we'll see eachother at the airport and then what? if he ever visits? sucks ass. And just when I was starting to get over him.....
So we left soon after and he was like 'I'm still waiting on you' and smiled and walked off and I was looking like the mouth open smiley on msn, all stupid and whatnot and it made for severe contemplation on my way home. I mean how do you react to being around your first love all day, one that you're still not over and isn't over you either but he's leaving you're doing the entire moving on crap. It's just so confusing and threw everything else straight out of the window. Maybe this will be good closure, I dunno.
I think I'll leave my confusing day right there since I can't think of anything else to say and I like to have my time to think to myself. So sorry for the uber long updates lately, but I had a lot to get off my chest.
I was looking all sophistocated and shit today lol Had a cute black suit on and an even cuter shirt (don't ask I was just feelin it this morning) and I was walking through the city just strolling, browsing the usual. I was craving for starbucks :p call it obsession but yeah, so deep in thought I got a shock when somebody just banged into me, or maybe I bumped into them ya know whatever. And I muttered apologies because I don't like talking to randoms but it was Jay, looking as fine as ever lol
We started talking which is odd, recently we seem to just stay away from eachother, though that's more my fault, out of sight out of mind. Somehow we ended up near the fountains near starbucks so he told me to sit and not run away for once, with his stupid grin *sigh* so I did and he came back out with 2 caramel Frapps *big cheesy grin* He always knows exactly what I'm craving. We sat by the fountains (it's just perfect there on a nice sunny day) Maybe it's my love for water but it just seemed so surreal.
We got past the niceties, how've you been blah blah blah and then he brought up how strange it is that we were together for so long and yet now we rarely make an effort to see eachother. I didn't really know what to say, which is odd, everyone knows I have verbal diahorrea the majority of the time, but not really around him anymore. It's strange how complicated things can get.
We decided to walk around, grab some icecream and just be how we always were around eachother, so comfortable, forget all the shit that's happened and it was really nice. Just hanging out and goofing around like we used to. Then he decides to drop the bombshell, I mean I knew that it was coming but ignorance is bliss right? He's moving, and not anywhere near, he's moving farrr away. His mom decided it's time to just go. I knew she wanted to move and I know he'll follow his mom anywhere but it's still not a nice thought ya know. He was like 'you know, we'll be in the airport on the same day, same time or close enough because I know you always get there early'. I was like 'wait, how do you know when I'm flying out?'. He just smiled his goofy smile again lol it's irritating yet adorable. He finally spoke after a little while of me being my usual 'tell me or else' self and he said 'you forget I speak to Hallie a lot too' lol I nudged him 'so you've been checking up on me?' and he smirked yet again 'Always. *Sigh* he's just so gahhh.
We carried on walking around and this was somewhat our conversation from that point:
Me: so we're leaving on the same day, though you for good?
Him: It looks like it
Me: Did you plan to leave the same time as me?
Him: No, that was just a happy accident *smirk*
Me: sure it was, stalker
Him: Of course
Me: But seriously, it's kind of depressing
Him: Yeah....Do you think we'll be one of 'those' couples?
Me: What kind?
Him: You know, that whole tearful goodbye that people watch and point at *smirks again*
Me: Only if you go extra sensitive on me
I'd summerize the rest but I dunno, tired?
We walked around for what seemed like hours and it probably was really. When it came to time to go it was kinda sad again lol gosh and to think I was happy to update today. He hugged me *shivers* so built lol yes I copped a feel, I have a right to do that lol and it was such a moment lol right there by the fountains and he was like (summerized kind of I guess)
Him: I'm gonna miss you, you know that right?
Me: Uh-huh
Him: I'll catch up to you at the airport though, departure lounge *laughs*
Me: How romantic
Him: I know right? Romeo right here
For some reason I just latched onto him, I dunno why, I wasn't thinking 'yes im gonna squeeze the dear life out of him' but I did it and man I teared up, how sad is that?! I felt so stupid. and I was mumbling into his chest lol talk about big baby but yes that's me
Anyway I'm rambling, I'll just get to the good stuff. He kissed me, yes after god knows how long he did and it was just whoa. I was shocked and whatnot but who cares, this is Jay we're talking about. Just wonderful, though sad because we'll see eachother at the airport and then what? if he ever visits? sucks ass. And just when I was starting to get over him.....
So we left soon after and he was like 'I'm still waiting on you' and smiled and walked off and I was looking like the mouth open smiley on msn, all stupid and whatnot and it made for severe contemplation on my way home. I mean how do you react to being around your first love all day, one that you're still not over and isn't over you either but he's leaving you're doing the entire moving on crap. It's just so confusing and threw everything else straight out of the window. Maybe this will be good closure, I dunno.
I think I'll leave my confusing day right there since I can't think of anything else to say and I like to have my time to think to myself. So sorry for the uber long updates lately, but I had a lot to get off my chest.