pretty on the outside, but out of control on the inside

[skittles57]

There are so many things that I know that I wish I never knew
There are so many things that I know that I wish where never true

Are there reasons for certain things going on?  What am I suppose to do?  I cant talk about it, so all I can say is God...please help us and please help me through this and help us all to be ok

I have not talked to anyone

Comments

[mimehater]

I'm sorry you're feeling down. It's hard to understand why we smile, and laugh and say the things we do when really inside we are screaming. But it's to protect ourselves...even as we fall deeper and deeper into the things we wish we never knew. It hurts to know things you don't want to, so in a way ignorance really is bliss. It hurts to know so much about people, things you wish weren't true, or things you wish they'd stop doing, it just eats away at you. If you ever want to talk to me about it, I'm always here, even if you don't really know how to explain things, I know I'll get them because I know where you're coming from. Sometimes it's okay to let it all out, but find someone you can talk to, you'll feel free and eventually that smile won't have to feel fake. And all the times you don't want to get out of bed will fade away, and you'll finally see the sun, shining down on you from behind the clouds.

[skittles57]

Thank you soo much!! I want you to know that ill always be here for you too! Its sometimes difficult for people to understand the meanings of things, or why we're even here in the first place. I try to hold on to hope because sometimes thats the only thing you have...but at the same time it doesnt even feel like its there. But you have to keep trying and hope thatll itll work out. I miss you soo much hun, and I really want to come up and see you all again...Im so glad we started talking again!! Love you