Today was surprisingly not a disappointment as I expected it to be ( Read more... )

Almost a month passed without undating. Why do i choose to update now? Because, I passed my road test.

I am so fucking sick.

-100.6 fever
-blood with coughing
-so many medications an addict would be in heaven
-can't breathe
-so fucking cold
-all too knowing of the taste of bile
-chance of failing senior year due to weak immune system

Joy.

My ear hurts so bad. I need to make a sea salt mixture. I'm trying to go up to at least 1/2" or maybe larger. Right now, I am setting the stretching goal to 1/2". Who knows, maybe I'll just end up getting another couple of ear piercings and start stretching my 2nd holes, but not to a large gauge. I don't think my lobes could handle it. I don't want ( Read more... )

You really never know how you hurt someone, until it hits you back. It really sucks and well, it makes me want to take back everything I did. Maybe being so optimistic and hopeful every fucking minute of my life is a bad thing, next to my emotional breakdowns and such. I really need to lay off smoking. So far, I've done it every day last week. ( Read more... )

I have been sick since last week. I have not been in school since last Wednesday, and it wasn't even a full day of school. I am going to fail senior year. Yay.

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The irony of it.

I know it's not really my place to have a say in any of this past or current drama going on with Jillian's people/events, but really ( Read more... )

Update? New look? What?!

I hate thinking.

Especially thinking, that makes me really think deep down and such.

It bothers me so.

Augh. I need to stop thinking.

Or I'll make a mistake.

Yet, I don't know...

Do I want to think like that?

Do I want to act like that?

Fucking shit.

I wish I had a Tyler Durden counterpart.