After 5 years my cousins from indonesia are here. They're gonna be here for 2 weeks then they're gonna live in san antonio. I havent seen them yet, but aparently they have all changed. I'm gonna see them today and maybe go to the movies or sumthing. This is so cool. I wish they could stay longer, but this is still very cool. I'll take pics of them ( Read more... )

Yesterday I got paid for babysitting and I got this feeling of guilt cuz I didnt get my dad nething. I went to target and bought him sumthing. I wasnt all my money but I thought it was worth it. Today I left him a message to see if he wanted to do something cuz I havent seen him in months, but he never called me back. I'm not hurt cuz he alwayz ( Read more... )

In case u wanted to know: the beach was kickass...the only thing is I got sunburned all thanx to marc. lol. He didnt put enough sun tan lotion on my back. At least I got darker. I'm not real dark, but its noticable. My mom might get her lawsuit money at the end of summer if she does then she said she wants to go to disneyworld. If she doesnt get ( Read more... )

Yesterday Marc's dad said I couldnt go to corpus w/ them so marc said he didnt wanna go either. I was a lil sad cuz I wanted to spend the entire weekend with marc. Later on marc's mom asked if I wanted to go to the beach with them on sat. Of course I said yes. Now all I need is a swimsuit. lol. I havent been to the beach since my car accident and ( Read more... )

Well for the past 3 days marc and I have been together for hours. I didnt get to see him today, but he said he was gonna come to my house everyday and help me babysit my baby sister. My mom finally said that I could go with marc for the weekend to corpus. YES!!!!!!!! This summer shouldnt be boring. I'm gonna go to corpus, maybe the beach and if the ( Read more... )

Well yesterday I got in trouble with palomin jr. I wont get into the story cuz every1 probabaly knows. After that I didnt want to go to 7th and see mr palomin so I went to one of my other classes and was actually doing work. So that wasnt skipping I was doing work. Well, my mom wont listen to me and grounded me. I asked her y and she said cuz I was ( Read more... )

Well, things with marc and me are finally better 100%. We finally figured out wat was wrong. Sumtimes we have lil fights but we're just joking. THats how we play around. We are mad about eachother. Well I guess since marc and i are happy other things need to mess up. I feel so left out now. I dont even think my friends r truely my friends. I guess ( Read more... )

Well, things with Marc and I are getting better (thank god). But why were they bad in the first place??? I know it was cuz of me, but why would I want to ruin the best relationship I'll ever have??? I was once told that love isnt always grand it can hurt to. Whenever I would think of love I thought of happiness, the end of sorrow. But I suppose I ( Read more... )

I dont know wat to do. There are sum "times" when I feel that I am in love with marc, and I am. Alwayz will be.But then, there r days that I feel I am not good enough for him. I dont know wats wrong with me I just feel so alone. I was gonna get with my friends thinking that would help when I realized that I need to be alone. I'll hang with my ( Read more... )

I suppose things could get worse, but I'm so numb inside now. I dont even know why I bother writing in here it doesnt really help me. Maybe I should just put it in my private entries. No one "really" understands. I know my friends r there for me, but they dont understand at all. How can they say my mom cares for me, when even marc sees that she ( Read more... )