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i'm pleased. granted i was VERY displeased at first... as soon as he said 'break ranks' i was looking for Steph. but i cried to her for a second and then got over it. i mean, what does placement mean, really? the point in us going to BOA is to perform our best for people who can really appreciate it. and thats exactly what we did. and i enjoied it. i've been wondering why exactly i loved this so much last year, and just... hadn't felt it yet. but i felt it yesterday. both performances were amazing for me. and especially the finals performance... i mean, standing around Sam, i felt like we were all ACTUALLY one unit. we were all ONE person. and in our mello gathering, David said something that stuck with me and just kept replaying in my mind as i was performing... he said that this was the best mello line that Collins Hill has EVER had. and it feels so incredible to know that you BELONG somewhere, and not just somewhere, but somewhere GREAT. with such GREAT people. what could be better than creating music with so many of these wonderful people? so, really, i can truthfully say that i dont care that we got eleventh, and i dont care who beat us or who won or lost or whatever. it just doesnt matter, because were still the best mello line that this school has ever had. were still the best band in Gwinnett. were still the Collins Hill High School Screamin Eagle Band. absolutely nothing has changed, except for now we all understand what we're doing and why were doing it, and we've been reminded why we love this. we're closer now, and we can move forwards from here, to Indianapolis and on into next year. because next year will be great, if we let it be. it will be good, because there are still people who love it. So long as there are people who still love it, it'll be great. and i still love it.