sigh..

[skoobz]

i feel terrible and i dont know why. i've talked to james and ami about this a bit, so what i say here might be a bit of a repeat for them

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[light_of_day04]

well.. no purpose maybe, but aim is different. suppose it takes time... but it doesnt mean u are missing anything either. I suppose the "mission" thing is a valid idea, it creates an experience for u that, supposidly, will give ur life aim and such. but its the same for any life experience, u just gotta experience it.

that was a useless comment too.. whateva.

[gdjiveturkey]

i agree with kyle. the mission, in principal, is a good idea. it may actually be a good idea.. although you dont necesarily need to make it a religious mission.. you could just... like... go to where-ever you would if you were doing it for the church. or you could go visit brittain like you've wanted. if it doesnt give you some direction, at least it will be a distraction.

[skoobz]

i'm not going to go in a mission for the church. that would be rediculous because i'd be teaching something i dont believe. but going on my own time and money to some place like England might be a good idea. i've always wanted to do that. i'll go eventually when i can afford it. (maybe i'll meet me a hot british chick)

[gdjiveturkey]

well does the church check what you are teaching? you could always skip.. or teach satan-ism instead.. haha.. thatd be funny. but yea.. money means job.. haha .. good luck.. and a hot brittish chick would be sick to the maximum. just be careful if you are playing on the big metal bar dome.. people may try to take your boomerang.. (happened to me).

[anything_lovely]

bzzz.. connect.

<3

[princessams04]

i <3 u scottald and everything will be ok

[_maybelline_]

hm, i don't know you personally, but we've met,
i'm angela and kristin's friend.

its weird, but by the way you explained what your feeling, i think i know how you feel, i always get those weird feelings that really only make some sense..but they always feel wrong[?] (i'm not very good at choosing the right words) well, i don't know if i'm feeling what you are but if its anything the same..to stop feeling so..whatever..i try to keep busy doing anything, cleaning, organizing, talking to people, ANYTHING. it does help, somewhat..anyways, i just thought i'd let you know that your not the only one, if thats is even something you needed to know.

sorry about the lame comment.
-Madeline

[skoobz]

hahaha, the comment wasn't "lame". i appreciate anyone's advice however "lame" they make think it might be. ;)

so yeah..thanks for the input, i appreciate it :)

[borisof007]

maybe she's born with it...

[light_of_day04]

maybe its _maybelline_ ...

[xo_ally_lou_xo]

heh, just wanted to say i know how you are feeling about the church...even though i'm a chick and there isn't nearly as much much pressure from everyone to go on a mission, i get it like hell from my parents and i don't even fucking know what i believe...i mean some concepts of the church i agree with, but most of it is just over my head...dare i say it...bullshit. i dunno. but i hope you start to feel better =/ hang in there, stuff will work out one way or another. one mormon to another, life screws over the best of us =/ sry you are feeling bad...