Some hysterical laughter and some tears...

I think I finally snuck in some sleep between 5 and 9 this morning....too much on my mind ( Read more... )

I just can't seem to sleep at all, so I went out on the porch and sang some songs from Moulin Rouge. I am so confused and hurting right now, I hope everyone can forgive me for not being so talkative and such, I just don't know how to deal with it quite honestly..there is just too much running through my head tonight and I can't take it, it's too ( Read more... )

She will either come back to me or she won't, until then I simply live.

I hurt.

I tried to eat, it didn't stay, I figured this would happen....day by day ( Read more... )

Hmm Nicki called so I am going to go into work in a few minutes after feeding the beasties. Anything to take my mind off of this...I don't know how to handle this any other way. I think this is a good time for one of my no food/little sleep phases, can't eat anyway.

I am going to go outside; and I am going to scream, and cry, and curse and yell. I am going to sing my heart and my sorrows out to the stars and an uncaring moon because I have nothing left.

I am missing my baby so much again, another night and day. I miss holding her so much, I really don't know what to say. I just hope she knows that I love her with all of my heart. I am really down today, and no baby to hold and kiss and cheer me up. Life, life, life...

Here we are on the eve of a new year, how swiftly time moves on. I won't be staying up tonight, no midnight party for me. I just wanted to say a few things before I go. It is not tradition but for a new year I think we should look back over the last year and be thanful for everything good in it. For my friends, for Shana, for all those who never ( Read more... )