Never question my methods
Little kids kill me. I like it when they're about 6 or 7 or sometimes even 11. I'd have a kid if I could give birth to an 11 year old. Just imagine the pain. But nah, kids get annoying after awhile.  I just want to go to a kid and tell them how crappy everything is and what a craphole their life is about to become.

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Why does everything seem to go wrong? I do my best to stay strong. It's just so hard when you're constantly feeling like you have to lie. About your life and about the times you cry. I feel like I should hide all my pain and everything I keep buried in my soul. Do you know exactly how this feels? I've never felt something this cold. You might ( Read more... )

Confession
In the past, I've been too eager to make friends because I was lonely, and that made me reach out blindly. When my hand met with something of potential, I tended to lean on that, putting myself not only more vulnerable to being hurt, but also annoying people and scaring them away. I know that now. Rejection taught me that people don't ( Read more... )

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There is a type of man I can't stand. The kind who just wants to claim something beautiful. The type of man who always comes after me. Not that I'm beautiful, but that's the first thing they'll tell me. How can you say you're in love with a girl when she never speaks to you? There's a pretty little doll standing all alone... Waiting for ( Read more... )

I badly hurt my foot today during baseball practice; tomorrow I might go get it x-rayed because this pain is just too much for me right now. This is honestly the worst feeling I’ve felt in my entire life. I could break down and cry like a baby any minute...I'm terrified that i might have broken a bone or something.

Time for a completely different ( Read more... )

I have heard many people, including myself, call themselves selfish. Then they decide that it's a trait that they must learn to accept in themselves. Sort of like a vulnerability for chocolate or men with tattoos. But I dont think it works like that. I think that selfishness is rooted from ignorance. An ignorance of the importance of friends and ( Read more... )

Well today it seems like a new chapter in my life has started, like a book just fell out of the sky and opened to a random page. It is good. Very good.
I am so glad everything is getting better. I am finally ready to do stuff and have fun. Perhaps I will finally learn to relax and take chances.
So much of the last several months have been terrible ( Read more... )

Had these grand plans for my future…I was going to go places and do things. And I was so sure and so positive and so hopeful. And now where am I? Unsure and insecure. God, I just want to be sure of something again. I hate being insecure. It pisses the fuck out of me.

Piracy and world domination. These things came into existence because I want ( Read more... )

Today I came home, butt-tired. (So tired in fact, that I'm somewhere between completely sure and completely not, that I made up the phrase 'butt-tired.') I had every intention of a quick rant and then bedtime, but instead decided to get funky with the kitchen and the spices and the whatnot.
I made a soup from scratch. And I labored over the spices ( Read more... )

I think the most valuable thing I have learned this year is that people will tell you that they care about you and perhaps even love you. They will say they are so glad that you two are friends. And a whole bunch of other bullshit. But you can't trust any of that, because underneath they are just deceitful assholes that will eventually break any ( Read more... )