i don't understand myself.
am i a bad person?
i certainly try not to be.
how does it end up i always hurt the people i love the most?
i feel like shit and i need a tissue.

wtf is up with the invasion of skanky whores lately?
wtf is up with that?
today was good. i guess.
the game, wasn't.
i'm sick of whores.
ew.
they make me sick.
i'm gonna go puke now.

Do you ever think about pointless things excessively ( Read more... )

life is too confusing.
and hectic.
and bothersome.

life is too stressful.
and worrysome.
and nerve racking.

life is too short.
and taken for granted.
and forgotten.

i don't want to talk about it.

My family and I are still fighting daily.
Perchance there’s no avoiding it.
I’ve come to the conclusion that until I’m able to change things myself by moving out, I’m stuck.

I’ve been so lethargic today.
I woke up at 6:30 to shower and I looked at the clock and thought to myself No, please please no….And then instead of getting up, I pushed snooze ( Read more... )

As unfortunate as ones situation might be there is always hope, correct? Although the tremendous burdens that one might be troubled with might seem as if they are unending, happiness will be obtained, true? It’s hard watching others fight their own battles when you wish with all of your might that you could do it for them. It does break my heart ( Read more... )

I find it somewhat astonishing how the events of one night can impact a person’s life so much. Last night I realized how fragile life and death is…how easy it is to forget that you really aren’t going to live forever and that one day it’s all going to come crashing to an end. Of course I realized these things many years ago, but last night when I ( Read more... )

Something tells me by the end of the week my whole family will have been sick. I was woken up abruptly by Faith at 9:15 this morning. She busts through my door and stands in its entrance staring at me, so I roll over and look at her and sigh an exhausted, “Yes?” Then she explains to me that Gracie had just puked in the living room, and ( Read more... )

it's hard for me to believe how long its been since i've used live journal.
i used to depend on it to get me throughout the day; it was like if i didn't spill my guts to someone, anyone, i would go insane. ah then myspace stepped in and everything else on the lovely internet poofed.

things have changed, people have changed, i have changed. so much ( Read more... )