blaaaaarrrgghh... 

I had a whole bunch of really good ideas last night. well most of them were good. anyway, I was supposed to be sleeping but instead I was thinking - planning, listing, wondering. Sleep was the last thing I was going to do... which is annoying because I was so very tired. I'm always tired now, not sleepy always just tired. I wonder... how much of it ( Read more... )

I haven't laughed this much in.... a really long time. It felt great.

I'm restless but tired ( Read more... )

I sort of expected to be devastated by this seemingly sudden abandonment. Instead I am in a constant state of waiting, like that peculiar woman who waits for a bus that never comes. My time is taken up by activities and necessities. I don't think about the waiting because dwelling accomplishes nothing, if not making the wait longer. But I notice ( Read more... )

Sunshine is possibly the best thing ever.

A lot of the time when I look at LJ and read what others have wrote I find myself wanting to express everything I think and feel inside. When I come to this screen here, full of white space, it all just sorta leaves me. I get this overwhelming feeling of "Oh, I give up!" I want to talk about school and how it feels good to be challenged and how I'm ( Read more... )

Sometimes it just gets to me
being stuck in the middle like
this
for all I am, I am fragile
and these things get to me
under my skin

I hate what you say to me
I hate what you say to him
I can't believe you

you don't even know how much you hurt me

Brendon I love you.

I had no idea that school would make me feel so busy! Yes, I only have three classes, and yes two of them are art classes - but I'm such a perfectionist with it all that it takes me an eternity to finish anything.

Anyway, I just figured I'd update... for those I don't see on a regular basis but who I try to keep in touch with.

BUSY! This weekend I ( Read more... )