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[skumg33k]

Everything looks fragmented through eyes half filled with tears. And when you blink the tears spill over and line the cheeks. My motto should be 'don't look back'. I don't pay enough attention to the now.

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be where you are

[samurailuci]

i often find myself elsewhere.  i wonder if anyone loves me, thinks of me, misses me.  i wonder if they all remember the stupid and embarrassing things i've done.

i try to remind myself to be here and now.  usually i realize i'm hungry or tired and need to take care of myself if i want to get any better.  getting that done, especially being consistent about it, is the hard part for me.  i get annoyed or depressed or hurt, and i back off on taking care of me...  it's a spiral, then, because tired hungry grumpy me can take a long time to unwind toward better.

i'm glad you posted, tho.  glad to know something of what's up with you, despite what it is.

hope things grow better.

the tao of now.

[skumg33k]

I just checked my messages for the first time in two weeks. And I recieved yours. I'm so sorry I missed them, but I have not been wanting to utilize my phone.
Your comment makes a lot of sense. Here and now, for me, at this present moment, does not feel delightful. I feel suspended. I don't feel like i've been "me" for a long time. I lack ambition. I lack the geniune smile I YEARN for. It sounds cheesy.
Glad to hear from you. I appreciate your input.