From The Inside
Title: From The Inside (1/2)
Pairing: Leeteuk/Kangin
Prompt: From The Inside - Linkin Park (Drabble #7)
Rated PG-13 (Swearing, mentions of...stuff)
A/N: This is based on a drabble I did for a challenge found Here
Summary: Trying not to break but I'm so tired of this deceit every time I try to make myself get back up on my feet all I ever think about is this all the tiring time between and how trying to put my trust in you just takes so much out of me. And it seems Teukie's just had enough.
[Ch 1] [ Ch 2]
"We saw Kangin-hyung at a bar, with some girl."
It seemed to Heechul this damn phrase had been uttered too much as he consoled a distraught leader, again. Teukie was sprawled on his bed, his head on his lap while Heechul earnestly tried to get the leader to calm down.
"He's not worth it Teukie and you know it. He said from the beginning that he didn't want to be committed, and by accepting that you sealed your doom."
Teukie sobbed harder and buried his face in his hands. He knew the other members were outside, but he didn't care at the moment. He knew the truth in Heechul's words. He had entered the 'relationship' with Kangin on the circumstances that neither would treat it as a relationship. They were friends that occasionally made out and had sex. But they didn't go on dates, didn't act romantic-y, and were allowed to see other people. Teukie, however, fell for the younger boy and fell hard. Now it was too late to back out of their agreement, but it hurt so much to know that Kangin was just using him and would then leave with someone else.
"You know Teukie, if you wanted to get someone else you're fully entitled to. I mean, that bastard does it every three days, why can't you get some outside these walls?"
"Heechul, how could you say that?"
Heechul sighed and started running his fingers soothingly through the distressed leader's hair.
"I'm just saying, Jungsu. You're not gay, you're bi so if he can go get girls why can't you? Don't let him see how much this affects you, just fuck it and do the same. If he doesn't care, neither should you."
"You know what Heechul, you might be right."
"Of course I'm right, I'm Kim Heechul."
They both laughed before Teukie dried the last of his tears and got up from the bed, stretching the cramped muscles in his back. Heechul got up and walked to the large closet.
"We have to get you sexy, we're going clubbing tonight."
Leeteuk nodded and started heading towards the door.
"Where do you think you're going Park Jungsu?"
Leeteuk looked back to Heechul.
"You know the rest of the members would kill us if they found out we went clubbing without them. Besides," Leeteuk went to the door and opened it, revealing 10 guys who quickly straitened up and pretended they weren't just caught eavesdropping, "it seems our plan was discovered anyway. Now all of you go get ready, we're leaving in 30 minutes."
They were about to scurry off to get ready when the front door opened. Heavy footsteps walked towards them and all the members looked at Teukie with wide eyes.
"What are all of you doing in front of my room?"
The 10 members in front of the door and Heechul in said room all turned to glare as Kangin stepped into sight. Leeteuk merely smiled his dimpled smile, happy his bangs were long enough to cover his red eyes.
"Kangin, you're just in time. We're all leaving to a club in half an hour so get ready. I get to shower first."
The members stared in awe as Leeteuk gracefully passed them all on his way to the bathroom. Their leader was tough, that was for sure. After all, not anyone can find out the person they love was with someone else and act like it doesn't effect them, especially when it happens as often as it does.
---
They walked into the night club, the music deafening, the lights dim. They frequented this club about once a month when they all had a night off. The dim lighting made it easier for them to be in plain sight, no one ever seemed to recognize them. They went to their usual table near the dance floor and Siwon, Hankyung, Yesung and Kyuhyun offered to go to the bar to get everyone their drinks. Sungmin dragged Ryeowook and Heechul to the dance floor with him, Donghae, Eunhyuk, Kibum and Shindong venturing off to a circle that was forming signaling a break dance battle. Leeteuk wanted to sigh out loud, those brats. Of course they would all scurry off and leave him with Kangin. They probably planned this too, and they would pay in the morning.
The members returned with all the drinks and noticed the awkwardness in the air between Kangin and Leeteuk. They excused themselves from the table and headed to the dance floor, leaving the two alone once more. Leeteuk knew the routine from here. He and Kangin would start drinking a lot of alcohol, get wasted, go to the dance floor and start making out, then probably end up having sex later. It was almost like a tradition whenever they went to this club. These thoughts drove Leeteuk to start downing the drinks that were meant for the other members.
Kangin was on his second beer, not even tipsy yet, when a girl approached the table. She shyly walked to the side where Leeteuk was seated and fidgeted slightly when he turned his attention on her. Leeteuk had at least nine of the twelve drinks in his system by now, and really everyone knew that he couldn't keep his alcohol like Hankyung, Heechul, or Kangin. He stared at the girl and smiled like only a truly drunk person would, his dimple noticeable in the dim lighting.
"Do you, um, maybe, want to dance? With me?"
The girl stood there waiting for the older man to respond. Kangin took another swig of his drink, too used to this to really care anymore. Countless girls would come and ask Leeteuk to dance and he would always answer--
"I'd love to."
Kangin almost choked on the mouthful of beer he had. He watched as Leeteuk took the girl's offered hand and walked, slightly staggering, to the dance floor. Well, that was unexpected.
---
Kyuhyun and Sungmin returned to the table with wide eyes. Kangin, by that time, had been sitting by himself for nearly half an hour the empty bottle of soju his witness to that statement. He watched with only a slightly buzzed mind as Sungmin and Kyuhyun took a seat, their eyes still wide open. The second bottle of soju he had ordered arrived and before Kangin could reach for it Kyuhyun's longer arms had already grabbed hold of it. He didn't even reach for a cup, merely tipped the bottle back and took a large gulp.
"Yah! Teukie'll have my head if he sees I let you get drunk again!"
Kangin noticed that when he said Teukie, Kyuhyun had difficulty swallowing the soju and Sungmin buried his face in his hands.
"Don't bother. They'll probably be trying to bleach their eyes out later."
Kibum sat down with an exhausted looking Donghae at his side. He motioned for the waitress to come when Kangin's mind registered what had been said.
"Why would they have to bleach their eyes out?"
Donghae looked up at him with big eyes.
"Haven't you seen it? Everyone else has."
"Seen what?"
Donghae turned his head to the side and scanned the dancing crowd. It seemed as if was looking for something but he turned back and faced Kangin in defeat.
"Well, you can't see it from here but Teukie is currently somewhere in there with his hands up some girl's skirt and her hands, well, lets just say we couldn't see where they were." Kibum said, taking a traumatized looking Donghae into his arms soothingly.
"It's like watching your mom get down with someone, its not right."
Kyuhyun took another shot of the soju before Sungmin took the bottle from him. Kangin was staring at them in shock. Surely they were wrong, Teukie was always responsible, telling them to keep their private affairs private, yelling at Heechul for groping Hankyung in public, and never going beyond the skin ship needed for fan service. If he wouldn't do it with Kangin in public, surely he wouldn't with some stranger right? He was about to go investigate when Heechul came through the crowd, dragging Leeteuk with him.
His eyebrows were furrowed, his mouth moving rapidly but Kangin couldn't make out what he was saying because of the music. Leeteuk just nodded and occasionally his mouth moved in laughter before he was thrown unceremoniously into the seat next to Sungmin, two seats away from Kangin. Sungmin took one look at him and gasped; Kangin would have done the same but he swore some vessel in his brain just popped.
Leeteuk was still giggling madly, his shirt buttons undone, his neck and chest littered with small red hickeys. Hankyung came out of the crowd moments later with...was that Leeteuk's belt?!
"I hope you know that we have schedule tomorrow and the make up noonas are going to kill you. Do you know how much cover up you're going to need?"
Sungmin waited for the reaction from the leader but all he got was another drunk giggle as Hankyung handed his belt back to him. Heechul breathed deeply and closed his eyes, rubbing his eyelids with his thumb and forefinger.
"Trust me Sungmin, I tried telling him that. I think he's just drunk out of his face or coming off an orgasm high."
All five people sitting at the table snapped their heads around and looked at him when he said that. Hankyung picked the leader out of his seat and replaced his belt, sitting him back down and giving him a swift slap on the back of the head. The leader's head snapped forward, his forehead hitting the table, and all he did was laugh while rubbing his head.
"I don't see what the big deal is."
"The big deal is that someone could have seen the leader of the boy band Super Junior on the dance floor getting sucked off by some random fucking stranger, that's what the big fucking deal is."
Teukie's head lolled back and forth before the leaned forward and rested his head against the table.
"My head hurts. I wanna go to sleep."
Teukie didn't want to look up. He had seen the disappointed faces of his members, and personally he knew he couldn't completely blame the alcohol. He could say that it was temporary insanity, but that wasn't true either. He was fully aware of what she had been doing, what would have happened as she slipped off his belt, but times he saw hickeys on Kangin's neck, the times he came back with cheap lipstick on his shirts, the times he came back smelling of liquor and perfume, he just let himself go. And he knew that if he looked up he might start to cry, because it was because of this petty desire to get back at Kangin that he let down these other eleven men that looked up to him.
He wasn't sure if it was this that was making him nauseous, or the copious amounts of alcohol he had ingested but he felt sick. He stood and walked away to the bathroom, ignoring the stares he felt digging into his very spine. This disgusting feeling was digging its way up his chest and into his throat, bringing the vile alcohol back with it.
---
He came out of the stall wiping his lips with the back of his hands. Those drinks that he had tasted good, but he would never be able to drink them again with the memory of how they tasted coming back up. He went to the sink and got a handful of water and rinsed his mouth. He spit the water back out and glanced up at himself in the mirror in front of him. He gasped when he saw Kangin standing casually in front of another stall, his back resting on the pillar between the stalls. When Kangin saw that he had finally been noticed, he went forward and pulled Leeteuk around so that they were facing each other. He kept his voice low but firm knowing that it was always more frightening than when he started yelling.
"Park Jungsu, what the hell do you think you're doing? Hm?"
Leeteuk looked up at him with wide eyes before stuttering a low "I-I'm not doing a-anything..."
His voice seemed to give out as he saw the enraged look in Kangin's eyes.
"So you weren't just whoring yourself off to some girl?"
Leeteuk's eyes widened before his eyebrows furrowed in anger. He used all the strength he could muster and pushed Kangin's chest back so that his back collided with the wall of the small bathroom.
"I can do whatever I want to Kangin, you aren't my mother."
Kangin's eyes flashed dangerously as he walked back in front of Leeteuk. Leeteuk wanted to fall back when he saw that this could become ugly, but the part of him that had put up with this shit for so long was insolent and he stood as tall as he could not backing down even when Kangin was so close they were breathing each other's air.
"You forget Leeteuk, you're mine."
"I am not your damn property Youngwoon" Leeteuk growled out.
He felt his blood flow faster, heating up his veins with intensity. His body, still weak from regurgitating all the alcohol, now stood rigid as the fury seemed to make his way to his very core. He felt his fists clench tightly, his nails digging half moons into his palms. His fingers only seemed to tighten as Kangin's eyes flashed arrogance.
"You sure as fuck don't say that when we're on your bed and I'm fu--"
Kangin never got to finish his sentence before Leeteuk's tightly wound fist found its way to his jaw. He was pushed back by the force and landed on his ass, staring up at awe at the leader. Leeteuk looked furious, angrier than he had ever seen him before. But behind that there was the shimmering in his eyes of hurt, betrayal. It was a look that Kangin knew well; after all, it was usually his fault that it was there.
"This," Leetuek announced, his voice hard, pointing between him and Kangin, "is over."
Leeteuk walked over him on his way to the door, merely kicking Kangin's arm when he tried to reach out to stop him. Kangin brought his arm back and cradled it to his chest, the throbbing in his fingers nothing compared to that of his heart when the door slammed shut.
---
It seemed like minutes after he had fallen asleep and was happily in his soju haze filled dreams that he was shaken awake violently.
"Yah! You lazy piece of shit, get up!"
Kangin didn't respond and heard a large sigh. They didn't try to wake him again, so he assumed they had left. He was about to re-position himself to get more comfortable when he was pulled forcefully onto the floor. He sat up quickly clutching his head in pain. He finally opened his eyes and saw the members all standing around him in their pajamas with their arms crossed across their chests, eyes all menacing.
"We've been waiting for you Kangin."
Kangin mumbled a 'Was goin on?' as he rubbed his eyes, trying to see if he was dreaming or not. He gets his answer when someone pulls him up by the collar of his pajamas and pushes him roughly. He feels his body falling backwards until he collides with the pillar of the bed frame. He looks up slightly terrified at the amount of guys gathered in his room looking ready to kill him with their bare hands.
"You need to stop fucking with Teukie-hyung Kangin."
Surprisingly it was Yesung who had stepped forward, his voice low and fists clenched.
"I haven't done shit to Leeteuk, what the hell are you talking about?"
Something in Yesung's eyes snapped and he started forward, his fist already raised in the air, his eyes burning with undisguised fury. Ryeowook reacted quickly and wrapped his arms around Yesung's waist, pulling him back into the little group. Kibum and Siwon seemed to step in front of the duo, stopping any attempts Yesung might make to attack Kangin again. Kangin seemed in shock that Yesung, one of the quietest in the group, was just about to attack him. This time Hankyung stepped forward.
"We aren't here to start a fight with you. If we had, me and Sungmin would have been enough to take you. We just want to talk to you, and we expect you to listen."
Donghae stepped forward this time.
"Stop hurting Leeteuk. He's done nothing but take care of all of us, and he doesn't deserve any of the stuff you do to him. You're supposed to be the one the Leeteuk-hyung can rely on, the father of the group. Now we all just feel shame when you show up here at two in the morning smelling like some whore's cheap perfume and it sickens us that you can still go into the room you share with him and still sleep at night knowing what you've done to him."
Kangin saw with a shock that by the time Donghae had finished, there were small tears making trails down his cheeks. Kibum quietly stepped away from guarding Yesung and went to wrap the crying boy in his arms. Eunhyuk came forward and glared at Kangin while his hand soothed Donghae's back.
"You know how much we looked up to you, respected you, especially Hae. You were practically a father to us, even those of us that were older, and Hae took you into that role even more after his father passed. You're disgusted us into thinking that a role such as father is something that scum like you who is willing to do that to Teukie doesn't deserve."
Heechul stepped forward.
"I am sick of having a crying Teukie in my room every two days. We are all sick of having to pick up the pieces when you're done creating your messes. He isn't a toy, certainly not your damn play thing, and if you continue to do this then we won't take it lying down. You know how much he loves you. You've probably seen his eyes swollen from crying, his throat raw from sobbing, and turned your shoulder to it. If you don't feel the same about him, fine. Just stop playing with him like this because you're slowly cracking into him and eventually he will break so much none of us will be able to put him back together. You have been warned."
With that the members all filed past the stunned man, each glaring at him as they passed by and out the door. Kyuhyun was the last member to pass by, slamming the door behind him, the sound echoing in the sudden loneliness of Kangin's room. He looked across the room in shock when he realized something: Leeteuk's bed was still empty.
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Dun dun dun~! I decided to do this in two parts since I've been so busy this is all I've been able to do and it frustrates me to just have this sitting there so yeah.
Like it? Think I should just stop here and forget this crazy dream? Please, do tell~
Pairing: Leeteuk/Kangin
Prompt: From The Inside - Linkin Park (Drabble #7)
Rated PG-13 (Swearing, mentions of...stuff)
A/N: This is based on a drabble I did for a challenge found Here
Summary: Trying not to break but I'm so tired of this deceit every time I try to make myself get back up on my feet all I ever think about is this all the tiring time between and how trying to put my trust in you just takes so much out of me. And it seems Teukie's just had enough.
[Ch 1] [ Ch 2]
"We saw Kangin-hyung at a bar, with some girl."
It seemed to Heechul this damn phrase had been uttered too much as he consoled a distraught leader, again. Teukie was sprawled on his bed, his head on his lap while Heechul earnestly tried to get the leader to calm down.
"He's not worth it Teukie and you know it. He said from the beginning that he didn't want to be committed, and by accepting that you sealed your doom."
Teukie sobbed harder and buried his face in his hands. He knew the other members were outside, but he didn't care at the moment. He knew the truth in Heechul's words. He had entered the 'relationship' with Kangin on the circumstances that neither would treat it as a relationship. They were friends that occasionally made out and had sex. But they didn't go on dates, didn't act romantic-y, and were allowed to see other people. Teukie, however, fell for the younger boy and fell hard. Now it was too late to back out of their agreement, but it hurt so much to know that Kangin was just using him and would then leave with someone else.
"You know Teukie, if you wanted to get someone else you're fully entitled to. I mean, that bastard does it every three days, why can't you get some outside these walls?"
"Heechul, how could you say that?"
Heechul sighed and started running his fingers soothingly through the distressed leader's hair.
"I'm just saying, Jungsu. You're not gay, you're bi so if he can go get girls why can't you? Don't let him see how much this affects you, just fuck it and do the same. If he doesn't care, neither should you."
"You know what Heechul, you might be right."
"Of course I'm right, I'm Kim Heechul."
They both laughed before Teukie dried the last of his tears and got up from the bed, stretching the cramped muscles in his back. Heechul got up and walked to the large closet.
"We have to get you sexy, we're going clubbing tonight."
Leeteuk nodded and started heading towards the door.
"Where do you think you're going Park Jungsu?"
Leeteuk looked back to Heechul.
"You know the rest of the members would kill us if they found out we went clubbing without them. Besides," Leeteuk went to the door and opened it, revealing 10 guys who quickly straitened up and pretended they weren't just caught eavesdropping, "it seems our plan was discovered anyway. Now all of you go get ready, we're leaving in 30 minutes."
They were about to scurry off to get ready when the front door opened. Heavy footsteps walked towards them and all the members looked at Teukie with wide eyes.
"What are all of you doing in front of my room?"
The 10 members in front of the door and Heechul in said room all turned to glare as Kangin stepped into sight. Leeteuk merely smiled his dimpled smile, happy his bangs were long enough to cover his red eyes.
"Kangin, you're just in time. We're all leaving to a club in half an hour so get ready. I get to shower first."
The members stared in awe as Leeteuk gracefully passed them all on his way to the bathroom. Their leader was tough, that was for sure. After all, not anyone can find out the person they love was with someone else and act like it doesn't effect them, especially when it happens as often as it does.
---
They walked into the night club, the music deafening, the lights dim. They frequented this club about once a month when they all had a night off. The dim lighting made it easier for them to be in plain sight, no one ever seemed to recognize them. They went to their usual table near the dance floor and Siwon, Hankyung, Yesung and Kyuhyun offered to go to the bar to get everyone their drinks. Sungmin dragged Ryeowook and Heechul to the dance floor with him, Donghae, Eunhyuk, Kibum and Shindong venturing off to a circle that was forming signaling a break dance battle. Leeteuk wanted to sigh out loud, those brats. Of course they would all scurry off and leave him with Kangin. They probably planned this too, and they would pay in the morning.
The members returned with all the drinks and noticed the awkwardness in the air between Kangin and Leeteuk. They excused themselves from the table and headed to the dance floor, leaving the two alone once more. Leeteuk knew the routine from here. He and Kangin would start drinking a lot of alcohol, get wasted, go to the dance floor and start making out, then probably end up having sex later. It was almost like a tradition whenever they went to this club. These thoughts drove Leeteuk to start downing the drinks that were meant for the other members.
Kangin was on his second beer, not even tipsy yet, when a girl approached the table. She shyly walked to the side where Leeteuk was seated and fidgeted slightly when he turned his attention on her. Leeteuk had at least nine of the twelve drinks in his system by now, and really everyone knew that he couldn't keep his alcohol like Hankyung, Heechul, or Kangin. He stared at the girl and smiled like only a truly drunk person would, his dimple noticeable in the dim lighting.
"Do you, um, maybe, want to dance? With me?"
The girl stood there waiting for the older man to respond. Kangin took another swig of his drink, too used to this to really care anymore. Countless girls would come and ask Leeteuk to dance and he would always answer--
"I'd love to."
Kangin almost choked on the mouthful of beer he had. He watched as Leeteuk took the girl's offered hand and walked, slightly staggering, to the dance floor. Well, that was unexpected.
---
Kyuhyun and Sungmin returned to the table with wide eyes. Kangin, by that time, had been sitting by himself for nearly half an hour the empty bottle of soju his witness to that statement. He watched with only a slightly buzzed mind as Sungmin and Kyuhyun took a seat, their eyes still wide open. The second bottle of soju he had ordered arrived and before Kangin could reach for it Kyuhyun's longer arms had already grabbed hold of it. He didn't even reach for a cup, merely tipped the bottle back and took a large gulp.
"Yah! Teukie'll have my head if he sees I let you get drunk again!"
Kangin noticed that when he said Teukie, Kyuhyun had difficulty swallowing the soju and Sungmin buried his face in his hands.
"Don't bother. They'll probably be trying to bleach their eyes out later."
Kibum sat down with an exhausted looking Donghae at his side. He motioned for the waitress to come when Kangin's mind registered what had been said.
"Why would they have to bleach their eyes out?"
Donghae looked up at him with big eyes.
"Haven't you seen it? Everyone else has."
"Seen what?"
Donghae turned his head to the side and scanned the dancing crowd. It seemed as if was looking for something but he turned back and faced Kangin in defeat.
"Well, you can't see it from here but Teukie is currently somewhere in there with his hands up some girl's skirt and her hands, well, lets just say we couldn't see where they were." Kibum said, taking a traumatized looking Donghae into his arms soothingly.
"It's like watching your mom get down with someone, its not right."
Kyuhyun took another shot of the soju before Sungmin took the bottle from him. Kangin was staring at them in shock. Surely they were wrong, Teukie was always responsible, telling them to keep their private affairs private, yelling at Heechul for groping Hankyung in public, and never going beyond the skin ship needed for fan service. If he wouldn't do it with Kangin in public, surely he wouldn't with some stranger right? He was about to go investigate when Heechul came through the crowd, dragging Leeteuk with him.
His eyebrows were furrowed, his mouth moving rapidly but Kangin couldn't make out what he was saying because of the music. Leeteuk just nodded and occasionally his mouth moved in laughter before he was thrown unceremoniously into the seat next to Sungmin, two seats away from Kangin. Sungmin took one look at him and gasped; Kangin would have done the same but he swore some vessel in his brain just popped.
Leeteuk was still giggling madly, his shirt buttons undone, his neck and chest littered with small red hickeys. Hankyung came out of the crowd moments later with...was that Leeteuk's belt?!
"I hope you know that we have schedule tomorrow and the make up noonas are going to kill you. Do you know how much cover up you're going to need?"
Sungmin waited for the reaction from the leader but all he got was another drunk giggle as Hankyung handed his belt back to him. Heechul breathed deeply and closed his eyes, rubbing his eyelids with his thumb and forefinger.
"Trust me Sungmin, I tried telling him that. I think he's just drunk out of his face or coming off an orgasm high."
All five people sitting at the table snapped their heads around and looked at him when he said that. Hankyung picked the leader out of his seat and replaced his belt, sitting him back down and giving him a swift slap on the back of the head. The leader's head snapped forward, his forehead hitting the table, and all he did was laugh while rubbing his head.
"I don't see what the big deal is."
"The big deal is that someone could have seen the leader of the boy band Super Junior on the dance floor getting sucked off by some random fucking stranger, that's what the big fucking deal is."
Teukie's head lolled back and forth before the leaned forward and rested his head against the table.
"My head hurts. I wanna go to sleep."
Teukie didn't want to look up. He had seen the disappointed faces of his members, and personally he knew he couldn't completely blame the alcohol. He could say that it was temporary insanity, but that wasn't true either. He was fully aware of what she had been doing, what would have happened as she slipped off his belt, but times he saw hickeys on Kangin's neck, the times he came back with cheap lipstick on his shirts, the times he came back smelling of liquor and perfume, he just let himself go. And he knew that if he looked up he might start to cry, because it was because of this petty desire to get back at Kangin that he let down these other eleven men that looked up to him.
He wasn't sure if it was this that was making him nauseous, or the copious amounts of alcohol he had ingested but he felt sick. He stood and walked away to the bathroom, ignoring the stares he felt digging into his very spine. This disgusting feeling was digging its way up his chest and into his throat, bringing the vile alcohol back with it.
---
He came out of the stall wiping his lips with the back of his hands. Those drinks that he had tasted good, but he would never be able to drink them again with the memory of how they tasted coming back up. He went to the sink and got a handful of water and rinsed his mouth. He spit the water back out and glanced up at himself in the mirror in front of him. He gasped when he saw Kangin standing casually in front of another stall, his back resting on the pillar between the stalls. When Kangin saw that he had finally been noticed, he went forward and pulled Leeteuk around so that they were facing each other. He kept his voice low but firm knowing that it was always more frightening than when he started yelling.
"Park Jungsu, what the hell do you think you're doing? Hm?"
Leeteuk looked up at him with wide eyes before stuttering a low "I-I'm not doing a-anything..."
His voice seemed to give out as he saw the enraged look in Kangin's eyes.
"So you weren't just whoring yourself off to some girl?"
Leeteuk's eyes widened before his eyebrows furrowed in anger. He used all the strength he could muster and pushed Kangin's chest back so that his back collided with the wall of the small bathroom.
"I can do whatever I want to Kangin, you aren't my mother."
Kangin's eyes flashed dangerously as he walked back in front of Leeteuk. Leeteuk wanted to fall back when he saw that this could become ugly, but the part of him that had put up with this shit for so long was insolent and he stood as tall as he could not backing down even when Kangin was so close they were breathing each other's air.
"You forget Leeteuk, you're mine."
"I am not your damn property Youngwoon" Leeteuk growled out.
He felt his blood flow faster, heating up his veins with intensity. His body, still weak from regurgitating all the alcohol, now stood rigid as the fury seemed to make his way to his very core. He felt his fists clench tightly, his nails digging half moons into his palms. His fingers only seemed to tighten as Kangin's eyes flashed arrogance.
"You sure as fuck don't say that when we're on your bed and I'm fu--"
Kangin never got to finish his sentence before Leeteuk's tightly wound fist found its way to his jaw. He was pushed back by the force and landed on his ass, staring up at awe at the leader. Leeteuk looked furious, angrier than he had ever seen him before. But behind that there was the shimmering in his eyes of hurt, betrayal. It was a look that Kangin knew well; after all, it was usually his fault that it was there.
"This," Leetuek announced, his voice hard, pointing between him and Kangin, "is over."
Leeteuk walked over him on his way to the door, merely kicking Kangin's arm when he tried to reach out to stop him. Kangin brought his arm back and cradled it to his chest, the throbbing in his fingers nothing compared to that of his heart when the door slammed shut.
---
It seemed like minutes after he had fallen asleep and was happily in his soju haze filled dreams that he was shaken awake violently.
"Yah! You lazy piece of shit, get up!"
Kangin didn't respond and heard a large sigh. They didn't try to wake him again, so he assumed they had left. He was about to re-position himself to get more comfortable when he was pulled forcefully onto the floor. He sat up quickly clutching his head in pain. He finally opened his eyes and saw the members all standing around him in their pajamas with their arms crossed across their chests, eyes all menacing.
"We've been waiting for you Kangin."
Kangin mumbled a 'Was goin on?' as he rubbed his eyes, trying to see if he was dreaming or not. He gets his answer when someone pulls him up by the collar of his pajamas and pushes him roughly. He feels his body falling backwards until he collides with the pillar of the bed frame. He looks up slightly terrified at the amount of guys gathered in his room looking ready to kill him with their bare hands.
"You need to stop fucking with Teukie-hyung Kangin."
Surprisingly it was Yesung who had stepped forward, his voice low and fists clenched.
"I haven't done shit to Leeteuk, what the hell are you talking about?"
Something in Yesung's eyes snapped and he started forward, his fist already raised in the air, his eyes burning with undisguised fury. Ryeowook reacted quickly and wrapped his arms around Yesung's waist, pulling him back into the little group. Kibum and Siwon seemed to step in front of the duo, stopping any attempts Yesung might make to attack Kangin again. Kangin seemed in shock that Yesung, one of the quietest in the group, was just about to attack him. This time Hankyung stepped forward.
"We aren't here to start a fight with you. If we had, me and Sungmin would have been enough to take you. We just want to talk to you, and we expect you to listen."
Donghae stepped forward this time.
"Stop hurting Leeteuk. He's done nothing but take care of all of us, and he doesn't deserve any of the stuff you do to him. You're supposed to be the one the Leeteuk-hyung can rely on, the father of the group. Now we all just feel shame when you show up here at two in the morning smelling like some whore's cheap perfume and it sickens us that you can still go into the room you share with him and still sleep at night knowing what you've done to him."
Kangin saw with a shock that by the time Donghae had finished, there were small tears making trails down his cheeks. Kibum quietly stepped away from guarding Yesung and went to wrap the crying boy in his arms. Eunhyuk came forward and glared at Kangin while his hand soothed Donghae's back.
"You know how much we looked up to you, respected you, especially Hae. You were practically a father to us, even those of us that were older, and Hae took you into that role even more after his father passed. You're disgusted us into thinking that a role such as father is something that scum like you who is willing to do that to Teukie doesn't deserve."
Heechul stepped forward.
"I am sick of having a crying Teukie in my room every two days. We are all sick of having to pick up the pieces when you're done creating your messes. He isn't a toy, certainly not your damn play thing, and if you continue to do this then we won't take it lying down. You know how much he loves you. You've probably seen his eyes swollen from crying, his throat raw from sobbing, and turned your shoulder to it. If you don't feel the same about him, fine. Just stop playing with him like this because you're slowly cracking into him and eventually he will break so much none of us will be able to put him back together. You have been warned."
With that the members all filed past the stunned man, each glaring at him as they passed by and out the door. Kyuhyun was the last member to pass by, slamming the door behind him, the sound echoing in the sudden loneliness of Kangin's room. He looked across the room in shock when he realized something: Leeteuk's bed was still empty.
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Dun dun dun~! I decided to do this in two parts since I've been so busy this is all I've been able to do and it frustrates me to just have this sitting there so yeah.
Like it? Think I should just stop here and forget this crazy dream? Please, do tell~