Lj Idol - Week 11: You're So Vain, You Probably Think This Topic's About You

Dec 04, 2008 22:31

Wait... the topic is about me? What?! What have I done that's so special to make a topic all about me?!?!?!

... damnit now that song is stuck in my head. THANK YOU.

Vanity isn't a sin I'm guilty of. I can't afford to really be vain yet in my life. But I've been accused of it many times.

I hate name dropping. In fact, the more famous people in my life that I'm friends with are hidden on some tiny list in the back of my head that I plan on never revealing to people. But sometimes, it happens.

You ever sit around and start telling stories about things that happen with you and friends that relate to the topic on hand? Imagine the looks you would get when your story happens to take "so-and-so famous author" and your misadventures at a convention and you don't realize the glares you're getting until you're laughing by yourself and hoping someone else will talk.

It's not vanity to me. These people are my friends... just like the non-famous people that I know. So why is it that I can sit with the famous ones and have the same exact conversation and everyone laughs with me?

I never understood the concept of celebrity in this day and age. Famous people are still people, and yet they are almost divided out amongst us. They are put on a higher pedestal and people start to idolize them. Or bash them when they make a little mistake. They can't do anything that we normal everyday people can. Malls are impossible to go to, you can't parade naked around your house without worrying about hidden cameras, and there are some people who even believe that their job is to service them in their fan needs.

It's like the celebrity title removes your status as a human being. And I feel sorry for them. I also know that the reason I'm able to be friends with them is because I can remember that they are still human, and I treat them as such.

So why am I made to feel bad when I talk about this set of friends? I don't see them as being any more special than my other friends (though I'm aware of it). They are just a group of guys that I enjoy drinking with, sitting around and hearing stories from the road, and making our own if time permits.

These are the friends that don't roll their eyes at me when I talk about so-and-so. And these are also the friends I know I will lose if I betray their trust they have given me. It's a fear I carry with each e-mail, phonecall, and trip that I will do or say something wrong. Then I would have to watch them walk away forever because it's hard to gain their trust, and to destroy it means it's almost poss

I'm not special. It's my friends who are. Maybe if my other friends stopped thinking me as vain for talking about them, and instead saw how I treat them, they could have their own stories some day.

This post is for therealljidol. If you liked it, please remember to vote for me on Friday. Thank you for reading, in case I don't get around to commenting.

about: my life, type: lj idol 5, type: personal

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