Hello, Abby! What's up? Ohhhh, nuthin... one of my boyfriends (lol, one of the three) is on his way to a gang war right now, he's riding shotgun. Do you know what that means? That means he'll have the gun. That means he'll open fire. I have a bad feeling about this... I really do. The shield Debbie put up is getting weaker. And I don't know how ( Read more... )

Joe called! I'm so happy! I got all upset because we were arguing so I got offline but then he called me! Major brownie points there. Ah, I love him so much, within seconds, I went from crying to having my face hurt because I was smiling too much. Heeheehee, HE CALLED!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY, CRIMMY! I LOVE YEW, SISSER!!!!!!! MWAH!

If you're going to go away again ( Read more... )

He's with Carrie, I'm with Joe. We're separated, we've broken up and it's not going to happen again. I've accepted all this. But why does it still hurt? I was crying when we drove him home that night. I'm crying now. I read his journal entries when he talks about her and then go back to the letters he wrote me and say, "He used to say that about me ( Read more... )

Waiting for my Dad to finish his movie, sitting here, being bored, bored, bored, bored!! SO BORED! AGH! I'm going to David's house soon. That oughta be interesting... we're gonna watch a movie. See how bored I am? BORED!!!!

I hate waking up all sleepy and depressed. I had a nice hour nap, though and my migraine is easing up. I'm waiting for Joe's punk ass to get online, waiting for him to get home from Rocky and Warhammer or whatever he does. We haven't talked in a while, well. For us. It's finally setting in on me how much of an effect he's had on my life. It's in ( Read more... )

Hey hey, writing again, home again, home again. I applied for a job today, wahoo... and now I'm home chillin with my girl Meg. She's new to the Abby cult, but hey, whatever, she's a chill chica and we like, hang out every day after and before school and during lunch. We real tight like that. Shit, man, I'm using more ebonics as the days pass, dude ( Read more... )

So I'm looking for a way to waste my time away until 2nd period is over, but I don't think that's gonna happen, there's only so much time I can waste... I'm thinking about going in after 1st. Yeah, so, like I said, Cory was in town these past 2 weeks, he left yesterday. And ya know what, kids? I'm fine. I'm okay. I mean, I had those fleeting ( Read more... )

Same fucking shit every day. The loneliness, the confusion, the hurt, the... everything. I'm sick of this bullshit. I want to leave, I'm bored with life, everything's going too well... part of me wants to cut myself again and get caught so Mom'll send me away. I just want to scream... I want to get into so much trouble... I can't handle school. I ( Read more... )