there's the possibility of me doing foreign exchange next year. i talk a lot of nonsense, and this isn't entirely settled, but you might not be seeing so much of me next year. is there a word for feeling both estatic and devastated?



( anyway )

i keep thinking there's cats scurring around my feet or there's someone behind me. i don't want to go to my room because it smells bad, and that's really disgusting. i'm almost finished reading a clockwork orange. so far, it's crazy good. very british. if you think about it, like what you are, it's so unsignificant. that not having anything to do ( Read more... )

i loved that this prom was not a predictable highly anticipated prom. seeing as we're not the kind of people who make a big deal about material things or big events, we skipped over the limo and lame after parties where the perfectly kept children rant about being SoOoOo drunk after a shot of their mother's vodka. we planned on getting some alcohol ( Read more... )

i had a dream that i was walking with my mom and brother. we were all wearing trenchcoats and it was foggy. i took a puff of a cigarette, and then i realized i was smoking right in front of my mom. she didn't notice, so i tried to put it out and put it in my pocket. she looked at me and told me that she never wanted me to do it again.

today. i went to the beach after school with thomas and shannon and becky. tanned, went half skinny dipping. misha called, wanted to meet up w/ thomas. we went, and they left when we got there. lex calls. wants to meet up w/ thomas. he asks if i want to go smoke on a boat, i say yes, but oh so sadly, lex doesn't want heidi to come. hmm ( Read more... )