#027 - boys of summerslackerspiceSeptember 15 2012, 22:58:18 UTC
I should have died.
I still wonder if I hadn’t, in a way.
Certainly, they were parts of me that wouldn’t be missed. Vanity, greed, delusions of grandeur, everything that had led me down this path to begin with is dead and buried with no regrets.
Now I just feel older. Not wiser, just sadder, tired in ways that I hadn’t believed existed.
But mostly? Scared.
The instant I’d wised up, my world got a lot bigger, and every time I think I finally have a handle on things, it turns out I really don’t.
I still wonder if I hadn’t, in a way.
Certainly, they were parts of me that wouldn’t be missed. Vanity, greed, delusions of grandeur, everything that had led me down this path to begin with is dead and buried with no regrets.
Now I just feel older. Not wiser, just sadder, tired in ways that I hadn’t believed existed.
But mostly? Scared.
The instant I’d wised up, my world got a lot bigger, and every time I think I finally have a handle on things, it turns out I really don’t.
If it weren’t so interesting...
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