Because it's driving me CRAZY not saying anything...

[slasher48]

She's my sister. He's just an old friend.

I barely know him. He barely knows me.

He doesn't AT ALL know her...

He'll choose her, if we both make moves on him. I'm certain of it.

Why the fuck does that hurt so badly?

Maybe because it's such a goddamn surety?

Because she's thinner. Prettier. Less brutal or intimidating.

Because he goes for girls like that.

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[magikalrhiannon]

*hugs*

[slasher48]

Thank you, sweets.

*lets herself be hugged*

*hugs back*

♥

[war_of_ataraxis]

It's never been my sister, but I've dealt with this all my life.

I don't like to feel sorry for myself, but it still creeps in sometimes. For whatever reason, I always end up making friends with the oddball, quirky, but cute girls -- and, of course, I always end up being the "fat friend." And while my personality is not always different from theirs, for some reason, it becomes endearing on them because, hey, they're just better looking than I am.

All through middle and high school, my various "best friends" (one especially) always ended up getting the guys I wanted, who only wanted to be friends with me. While I still get guys, and I wouldn't consider it "settling" I never get the guys I realllly wanted, because while they "like" me they never "like" me...

[slasher48]

Jesus, love, you're telling my life story.

I hate feeling insecure, I hate feeling irrational, and I very much hate envying friends of mine, who hold so much of my admiration, simply because others like them better.

But I can't help it, sometimes.

It's a hard slap in the face when you act the same, talk the same, walk the same, feel the same about issues...and are cast aside because of your looks.

Thankfully my sister is sweet enough NOT to go after the guy, but that doesn't change the fact that I'm the 'fat sister' who's had less guys/girls in her entire life than she's had in this year. That she rejects more people than I've even ever been pursued by.

And the guy who I've always been attracted to, who flirts with me mercilessly, with nothing behind it, would suddenly discover some new affection for her...simply because she looks better.

Yeah. The best friend thing is hard, too. Wanna talk terrible? The three boys in my circle of friends I've ever liked have fallen for the same girl

[war_of_ataraxis]

<3

[slasher48]

<3333333

[slasher48]

*buries self into the hug*

Yeah, but there's like this ridiculous presupposition that the older sister is supposed to be the 'better' one. And I'm just...not.

Not even close.

And who the fuck ignored you for your sisters? I very much want to know -- I know firsthand you're fucking great! :D

[deathpunkscum]

I feel for you here :( *hugs*

[slasher48]

*nuzzles*

Thanks, sweets. :)

[have_666_mercy]

Thanks for telling my story, girrrrls! I have always had lots of friends who are guys, but not that many guys who really wanted to be with me. And some of those guys made me run in the opposite direction to get away from them. If I liked a guy, inevitably he asked one of my friends out

[slasher48]

Yeah, I'm definitely the guy's girl. Apparently I was mistaken that that somehow attracts them, lol, but I have tons of guy friends.

The ones I liked asked my friends out (exactly like those knock-outs you're talking about, specifically my best friend and the friend she'd dragged along into our group from second grade) and the ones I didn't would pine after me, making me feel terrible for years because I couldn't feel the same way -- making me feel like I was doing something awful because I knew so much how it felt to be on the other end of that arrangement