Can't say this to him. So...

[slasher48]

Dear Jordan,

I've been thinking you might not be worth it anymore. I mean, yeah, sometimes you're there, but usually you aren't, not because you can't be, but because you don't want to be. Especially with fucking Chris. You act like I'm something you stepped in and make me feel like shit whenever you and he are together.

Yeah, I fucking know

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[myforgottenpain]

Hun you defiantly dont need friends like that. Speaking from personal experience, I know its not easy to let go. I was best friends with a girl for a number of years, right through high school and into college. She started pulling shit that was tearing me apart inside. I didnt want to let her go because it had been an all to common theme in her life. Everyone left her, I had always been the one constant in her life. The one person she could always depend on. But it got to a part where I just couldnt deal with it anymore. I couldnt deal with what she was doing to herself and to me, so I had to let her go. It still hurts me every day to think about what might be happening to her. I want so much to pick up that phone and tell her that I love her. But I know I cant. I cant help her the way she needs to be helped. The minuet I started trying to talk reason to her, was the minuet she turned away from me. I still miss her terribly....

[slasher48]

Yeah. I know. But you're right, it's fucking impossible to let go ><.

Awwwww. Darling *huggles* that sounds horrible. I'm sorry you had to go through that. Jordan's not like that; he's wonderful to himself, just shitty to me :\.

*cuddles* You poor thing.

Someday you should.

[myforgottenpain]

~returns huggle~ its alright... I know I will have to face it some day. Im just... scared. Scared of going through it again. Im sorry your going through the same thing... its never good.

[slasher48]

:).

Yeah. It can't be avoided forever.

I understand. That's sweet of you. You're right, it isn't. >