One month ago today i woke up and didnt feel any movement but maybe a small wiggle which wasnt normal. 12 hours and 22 minutes later Miss Ryder Mae made her first apperance into the world. And speaking of Miss Ryder Mae i need to continue this later she wants more food.

Ok i probably forgot to mention this but today is MDR's birthday...so yayyy Happy Birthday to my wonderful One. So like today was good. He got birthday smiles from the baby when He fed her this morning. Would have thought it was my birthday since He let me sleep in and He changed her and fed her a bottle of breast milk. Well she gave Him the ty ( Read more... )

Ya ever just kinda sat around and thought all kinds of things that made sense and didnt make sense? Well if you have then we have something in common lol. But this is one of the things i was thinking about....Its Ok. I know that sounds strange but think about it how many times a day ,year, lifetime,month, moment etc etc sit around wondering is it ( Read more... )

Ok so like ive totally been neglecting my livejournal because im posting in yahoo on my blog...now if i could only figure out how to make my blog show up here in livejournal id be doing all right lol. but of course i have no idea how to work the dang feed thingys and its giving me a headache even trying to lol but eventually im sure ill give up on ( Read more... )

Holy hell its been awhile since ive updated it looks like. Well according to my belly and other peoples journals roflmao I HAD A BABY!!! yayyyyyyyyyyy. and shes perfect! ok so maybe im just a bit biased lol but dang its nice to have her here and not inside anymore. but i think im gonna journal later cuz my gramps is here holdin the baby and im ( Read more... )

Ok so ive been up for an hour already and now im getting food because my belly says im hungry. but the rest of me says fuck you. i feel like i need to pee like all the damn time and ive now woken Him up and He says He isnt mad but sure seems like He is. So now i have to deal with that. i cant win for fuckin losing. all i know is im very ( Read more... )

The journay for a baby continues. its begining to feel like the song that never ends it goes on and on my friend. with a fart fart here and a burp burp there here a contraction there a contraction ....but NO BABY!!!!!! ok can you tell ive gone completly off the deep end? well this is worse then when i just wanted to kill people. this is like omg ( Read more... )

Well im still preggo and im still miserable lol but now there are only 2 days till the due date. Today i go to the doc at 345 and i cant wait. because i could be committing murder lol. if that damn doc dares utter the words 2 more weeks im going to strangle him and then beat him with his lil laptop!! and if he says im still at 2 cm then im gonna ( Read more... )

Ok so like i said that once i got back online id be updating my journal more frequently. but looks like i lied lol. i just cant seem to get into being online all the time. i think thats because the chair for the computer sucks ass and is a punishment chair. you sit on it and you feel like your dyin 5 minutes later. that and all my friends arent ( Read more... )

Ok like i said id probably be back lol....omg i cant believe i forgot lol but damn its been 2 years with Him. 1 online and 1 real life...omg i cant believe it. damn im a bad bad girl for forgettin lol