Tony left me in early April..Seems my drinking was out of control...Fast forward to April 13, 2008. I was drunk and we were out of toilet paper..I gave Megan money to buy some and sent her on her way to the store..It happened within ear shot, yet, I, being Slayer (AKA the drunk) was oblivious to it..It happened as she was jay walking to a store a ( Read more... )

And i will respond to everyone..i promise..you all rule..

How it happened...I do blame myself, and I will tell you why...She was hit by a car..As of a month ago, you could google it.. it is no longer available.. I blame myself because if it was not for me, she would not have been where she was to get hit...I find it funny, and not in a haha way that all my best, truest friends EVER have been on LJ..YEt, I ( Read more... )

I presented miss slayer jr as the next miss big thing..and i just wanted to grieve by my self..I just felt that since my LJ friends had their own lives that this would be too much for them. My own mom couldn't make it because the death of Meg was too much to bear..I just hate life

want to be sick..Mir, and Russ...I know she wanted to meet you...

I will keep her myspace page alive...what the fuck???? I am so sick it makes me sick..

I am in need of my child. I will neve have her back. Yet, she is all I think of. ..I blew it as her mom..I let work, and other things take my time from her. and now she is no longer in my life...I fucked up dear friends..I am no longer the good, strong person I was before....I am weak, and undeserving..I knew not keeping intouch with you all, and ( Read more... )

And I am so sorry I have ignored the best of you. My so called friends here in so cal are nada comapared to you all...I am just so sorry for life's turn of events and tat iam not th

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