HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA
HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA
HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA
HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA
HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA
HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA
HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA
HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA
HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA Leave a comment

OK - So I havn't been READING other peoples posts - until today. I didn't even bother posting last week I don't think ( Read more... )

Today is the first time in however long it has been that I have felt something. Sadness and loneliness, but still, I am feeling something. It feels bad and hurts, but I am "happy" to be feeling something again..... happy is the wrong word..... I am grateful to be feeling SOMETHING again ( Read more... )

I am realizing that this past week I have been in a state of denial. Not denying that my relationship with Hayden is over. I am facing that fully. I know there is no denying that it has happened. But the denial I am experiencing is a different kind. I have been denying myself to feel emotions. I unconsciously have been not letting myself feel ( Read more... )

I had bought tickets to go see The Forgotten Carols with Hayden for this Wed. Well... with things the way they are now, I asked somebody else to go with me. She wouldn't give me a yes or a no answer. I tried calling her this weekend a couple of times and never heard back from her. I don't know what to think. I didn't even get a text back when I ( Read more... )

I thought that my post tonight would be one of how hard my last few days have been and why I was so upset. But despite being upset, I wasn't feeling anything. Feeling nothing. Not happy, not sad, just nothing. But I started watching The Forgotten Carols about 22 mins ago. And I am sobbing right now. Not tears of joy, nor pain, nor sadness. These ( Read more... )

Sunday, sick. I went to church to teach my lesson, but then came home. I just DO NOT feel well today. Last night I was fighting headache. Today it is still there and have upset tummy.

Breaking up sucks ass! And not in a good way! When will my body and emotions return to normal? Will they ever?

Still haven't had a real talk with Hayden again yet. And at this point I really cannot be bothered. She called me Friday to "let (me) know that (she) still cares about (me)." Ok...... and..... so what?! What I am supposed to do with that? I will do the only thing that I CAN do with that. NOTHING! Let her say her piece and move on. So Sat I slept in ( Read more... )

I have decided. I think...... I am not going to get back together with Hayden if she wants to be together. I am done. She is wanting things that I, not any person can supply. I cannot read minds. If I am not TOLD what is needed, I cannot do/provide it. It doesn't matter how "big" of a thing it is. I need it to be told to me, end of story. I offered ( Read more... )

I feel angry. I am very upset. I am mad. I am so ticked off right now that I cannot even see straight. Hayden is upset with me for not helping her move yesterday and today. I didn't know that yesterday and today were the days that she was moving. She tells me that I should have known that she was moving this weekend. She tells me that she wanted me ( Read more... )