I exist unconsciously in two separate beings. A completely foreign self. This virus - leeching off vitals. Shutting down enzyme activity. Its presence is well known yet many times misdiagnosed ( Read more... )

And so we've found ourselves still existing in one of the longest and most painful endings. Holding onto a potential that was so beyond existence itself, but we let it go. Exhausted our chances when we crossed paths too soon. Perhaps in another life, we'll get it right and our story will find its way to golden pages. Until then, we carry forever on ( Read more... )

To be the ring leader
of these sad little kids.

To have them all love you,
even if they're disposable.

Many behind you,
regardless of what they mean,
do you even know what that means?

Do you even know what real is?

Seriously,

this thing is effin' amazing
and it just strengthens my obsession.

http://torr.typepad.com/weblog/2008/01/moz-penpal-lett.html

I don't know how to link things all fancy-like.
Thank YOU Deanne.

Fuckkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkked up.
Last party at my house ever.

I've become quite boring,
and wasteful.

I'm also becoming obsessed with something that may not exist.
As of a few days ago, what are you?

I almost got hit by a car,
going like 90mph through a red light,
that had been red long enough for the crossing sign to be up.
If Scott hadn't pulled me back or if I had been a trillionth of a second ahead in my path... oh my.

What the fuck.
Stupid drunk drivers.
Scariest thing of my life.
I almost died tonight.

Then! I saw some stupid girl push ( Read more... )

Bombed my placement test.

Did ALRIGHT in English (because I'm not ESL!)
And somehow got better in algebra than arithmetic.

I hate multiple choice with a passion.
WTF.

I just want to be,
one of those people,
the ones that can go away
forever.

My head is screaming at me.
Absolute chaos.

An 'adkgbsjfbasdjgb' banging from within my skull.
Competition of inaudible aggravation.

That's probably the best I can describe it.

Has anyone felt that before?
Or am I just crazy?

This hasn't happened in a while.