→ i hate you more
I KNOW I'VE MADE LOTS OF SMALLER FANMIXES FOR THIS PAIRING BEFORE and a lot of unfinished ones and - things like that but I swear that THIS IS THE VERY LAST ONE.
And if you're going to tell me I'm going to hell for shipping them and I AM MESSED UP and must want to be in a fucked-up relationship with an undead palm tree? You can leave now. I really don't need another shipping-related blow to my self esteem, k'thnx.
IF YOU'D LIKE ME TO UPLOAD ANY OF THE SONGS TO SENDSPACE, JUST ASK. It may take a while though.
Anyway! On to... the mix and some more rambling before that.
Honestly? I'm completely fascinated by the idea of them. Not the way some people in the fandom seem to enjoy writing them, with Ed as kind of the - stereotypical weepy uke type, or turning Envy into an "I JUST WANT TO BE LOVED" woobie, but them as they are in canon - snarky, awesome, and trying to kill each other.
and then making out furiously (possibly while STILL trying to kill eachother) but that bit isn't canon.
There's a lot more to it than that, but it's hard to explain and I am typing this at five in the morning, so please forgive me for that. Suffice to say: I AM NOT INTO EDVY FOR THE PRETTY. I AM INTO IT FOR THE MINDFUCKERY AND THE WRONGNESS OF IT ALL. And I'm not that ashamed.
Oh, and I'm sorry for my terrible taste in music. /sobs
you can listen to the mix here.
(Embedding's acting oddly.)
himerus and eros « the spill canvas
you're captivating while evading
all the questions I have for you like,
"what exactly makes you tick?"
when the guilt sets in, tell me
what are we going to do?
I BLAME hocchikissu. I BLAME HER SO MUCH. Okay, so I'm the one who discovered the song, but SHE was the one who said it fit, and then I got all into making EVERY BIT OF IT into an Edvy song and that's before I started researching the Greek mythology in the title and - *facepalm*
the perfect drug « nine inch nails
my blood wants to say hello to you
my feelings want to get inside of you
my soul is so afraid to realize
how very little good is left of me
Ah-hem.
jack the ripper « colin meloy (morrissey cover)
and I know a place
where no one is likely to pass
and you don't care if you're late
and you don't care if you're lost
but oh you look so tired
but tonight you presume too much, too much, too much
/FANGIRL SQUEE OVER OMFG COLIN MELOY
Now that I've got that over with... I think of this as the "o hai Ed you are getting dragged off for random sex in an alleyway now. And then Envy is going to try and kill you. Again" song.
closer nine inch nails
you can have my isolation
you can have the hate that it brings
you can have my absence of faith
you can have my everything
Yes, yes, cliche song choice. I know.
my heart is the worst kind of weapon « fall out boy
let me tear you to pieces
this is me wishing you
into the worst situations
... you wouldn't know a good thing
if it came up and slit your throat
A friend of mine once told me that all Fall Out Boy songs were somehow relatable to FMA ships. She randomly clicked on the lyrics to this one while looking for inspiration for a fic. It... fits scarily well in my head.
post blue « placebo
it's in the water, baby
it's in your family tree,
it's in the water, baby,
it's between you and me
bite the hand that feeds,
tap the vein that bleeds
down on my bended knees
I'd break the back of love for you
I'd break the back of love for you
I'd break the back of love for you
I'd break the back of love for you
I MUST ADMIT I DO NOT FULLY UNDERSTAND THAT LAST LINE but it sounds like them, it really does, and by the way, Ed? You can't blame your fucked up family for you being semi-incestuous with a palm tree. Really. You can't.
gallery piece « of montreal
I want to kiss your eyelids
and corrupt your dreams
I want to crash your car
I want to scratch your cheeks
I want to make you sick
I want to sell you out
want to expose your flaws
I want to steal your things
I want to show you off
I want to tell you lies...
I want to be a beast
I want to make you proud
and play with your head
I want to take you out
make you feel adored
... I want to hurt you bad
make you paranoid
and say the sweetest things
Did I mention this ship's really, really dysfunctional?
bodies « smashing pumpkins
the tragedies reside in you
the secret sights hide in you
the lonely nights divide you in two
all my blisters now revealed
in the darkness of my dreams
in the spaces in between us
but no bodies ever knew
nobodys
no bodies felt like you
Dead bodies, that is. (THAT IS NOT A NECROPHILIA JOKE WAITING TO HAPPEN) There's a difference between just killing someone and - this. The blood rush is different, somehow.
my sweet prince « placebo
never thought you'd make me perspire
never thought I'd do you the same
never thought I'd fill with desire
never thought I'd feel so ashamed
I always thought this song was about drug addiction, actually, but - I actually downloaded because someone used it on another fanmix and it sounded like it COULD be used as an Edvy song and - yeah.
And if you're going to tell me I'm going to hell for shipping them and I AM MESSED UP and must want to be in a fucked-up relationship with an undead palm tree? You can leave now. I really don't need another shipping-related blow to my self esteem, k'thnx.
IF YOU'D LIKE ME TO UPLOAD ANY OF THE SONGS TO SENDSPACE, JUST ASK. It may take a while though.
Anyway! On to... the mix and some more rambling before that.
Honestly? I'm completely fascinated by the idea of them. Not the way some people in the fandom seem to enjoy writing them, with Ed as kind of the - stereotypical weepy uke type, or turning Envy into an "I JUST WANT TO BE LOVED" woobie, but them as they are in canon - snarky, awesome, and trying to kill each other.
and then making out furiously (possibly while STILL trying to kill eachother) but that bit isn't canon.
There's a lot more to it than that, but it's hard to explain and I am typing this at five in the morning, so please forgive me for that. Suffice to say: I AM NOT INTO EDVY FOR THE PRETTY. I AM INTO IT FOR THE MINDFUCKERY AND THE WRONGNESS OF IT ALL. And I'm not that ashamed.
Oh, and I'm sorry for my terrible taste in music. /sobs
you can listen to the mix here.
(Embedding's acting oddly.)
himerus and eros « the spill canvas
you're captivating while evading
all the questions I have for you like,
"what exactly makes you tick?"
when the guilt sets in, tell me
what are we going to do?
I BLAME hocchikissu. I BLAME HER SO MUCH. Okay, so I'm the one who discovered the song, but SHE was the one who said it fit, and then I got all into making EVERY BIT OF IT into an Edvy song and that's before I started researching the Greek mythology in the title and - *facepalm*
the perfect drug « nine inch nails
my blood wants to say hello to you
my feelings want to get inside of you
my soul is so afraid to realize
how very little good is left of me
Ah-hem.
jack the ripper « colin meloy (morrissey cover)
and I know a place
where no one is likely to pass
and you don't care if you're late
and you don't care if you're lost
but oh you look so tired
but tonight you presume too much, too much, too much
/FANGIRL SQUEE OVER OMFG COLIN MELOY
Now that I've got that over with... I think of this as the "o hai Ed you are getting dragged off for random sex in an alleyway now. And then Envy is going to try and kill you. Again" song.
closer nine inch nails
you can have my isolation
you can have the hate that it brings
you can have my absence of faith
you can have my everything
Yes, yes, cliche song choice. I know.
my heart is the worst kind of weapon « fall out boy
let me tear you to pieces
this is me wishing you
into the worst situations
... you wouldn't know a good thing
if it came up and slit your throat
A friend of mine once told me that all Fall Out Boy songs were somehow relatable to FMA ships. She randomly clicked on the lyrics to this one while looking for inspiration for a fic. It... fits scarily well in my head.
post blue « placebo
it's in the water, baby
it's in your family tree,
it's in the water, baby,
it's between you and me
bite the hand that feeds,
tap the vein that bleeds
down on my bended knees
I'd break the back of love for you
I'd break the back of love for you
I'd break the back of love for you
I'd break the back of love for you
I MUST ADMIT I DO NOT FULLY UNDERSTAND THAT LAST LINE but it sounds like them, it really does, and by the way, Ed? You can't blame your fucked up family for you being semi-incestuous with a palm tree. Really. You can't.
gallery piece « of montreal
I want to kiss your eyelids
and corrupt your dreams
I want to crash your car
I want to scratch your cheeks
I want to make you sick
I want to sell you out
want to expose your flaws
I want to steal your things
I want to show you off
I want to tell you lies...
I want to be a beast
I want to make you proud
and play with your head
I want to take you out
make you feel adored
... I want to hurt you bad
make you paranoid
and say the sweetest things
Did I mention this ship's really, really dysfunctional?
bodies « smashing pumpkins
the tragedies reside in you
the secret sights hide in you
the lonely nights divide you in two
all my blisters now revealed
in the darkness of my dreams
in the spaces in between us
but no bodies ever knew
nobodys
no bodies felt like you
Dead bodies, that is. (THAT IS NOT A NECROPHILIA JOKE WAITING TO HAPPEN) There's a difference between just killing someone and - this. The blood rush is different, somehow.
my sweet prince « placebo
never thought you'd make me perspire
never thought I'd do you the same
never thought I'd fill with desire
never thought I'd feel so ashamed
I always thought this song was about drug addiction, actually, but - I actually downloaded because someone used it on another fanmix and it sounded like it COULD be used as an Edvy song and - yeah.