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[sleeplesstar]

ive eaten one toaster strudel today and i am starving but i think that im about to go and take care of that. im home alone and this is the perfect time to go and stuff myself. when my boyfriend is home he worries that i dont eat enough, little does he know i eat way more than i should. i just cant stop, and i dont think that i want to, i like where

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[chosen_darkness]

hey, im not sure if u remember me, but u posted in one of my journals so yea. I would really appreciate it if we could tlk sometimes, bcuz now i feel rly alone cuz i dont know anyone who I can talk to about all of this stuff. Over the past month my mom kinda found out so shes been making me eat:(i gained 2lbs...fun fun...so im 112. Starting monday i plan to restrict to 400cals max until school starts again and then its 200cals.I wlk 30min, pilates, 288crunchies, 180squats, and 200jumping jax. Is that good enough do you think? IM not sure how much ill be able to lose doing this, I just hope i can stick to it. I stuck to lyk 300-400cals max for a month and it seemed so easy, but now...i have a feeling its gona be alot harder. Sorry for a long post, I hope ur not bored. Can I know your stats plz?You can add me if youd like. How long have you had this ed for?...I have a lot more questions, but i wont keep u lol, if u have any to ask me, feel free. Wish u all the best.

[sleeplesstar]

right now im at 115 but i want to be at 100 even though i dont think i will be happy unless im at 95. ive been mia for about 4 yrs now, it was working great untill i started to throw up blood, so i switched to ana. but i dont have enough will power to do that. im 5'2 so im really desgusted w/ my weight. when i sit down there are rolls where there shouldnt be. it makes me sick to see myself naked in the mirror. mia works for me and the advise i have for you is that when you know that you have to eat in front of your mom and you cant purge, stock up on exlax. take a double dose of the chocolate exlax bar before you eat and then the same after you eat. it sounds gross but it works, and anything to acheive the goal right...happiness w/ ourselves. and as for the excersize, i just bought a torso track 2 and i love it. i also dance about 5 times a week and that helps. hope that i could give you some useful info and i will definitly add you. lets keep in touch.....