note to self:
next time you go fucking up your perfect, dreamy little life
do it the easy way.
"your blatant disrespect sickens me as much as it hurts me!
my room or lack thereof smells like a stale ashtray.
i'm done. you've gone WAY too far this time.
hope your friends are ready to fill my role.
BTW... i will be checking to see why i got the "your child's not in school" call again wednesday.
continuing! right in MY house and under my nose.
i'm done.
make your own rules, but you won't here.
i have nothing left to offer.
it's jeremy de ja vu minus the cops & birth certificate.
i wish you all the luck in the world and you'll always have my love.
i'm tired of fighting. i have nothing more to lend the situation.
tell yourself whatever you need to. you've called me a hypocrite and made my life hell.
perhaps your father has more to offer.
of course you didn't notice!
you're just skipping along doing whatever in the hell you want, oblivious to the rest.
i'm fighting for you to make good decisions.
it's all me, so get the hell away.
save yourself!
you WILL NOT stay here in MY house doing as you please.
it's that simple at this point.
hope it's all turning out as you hoped it would."
i should be emotional and drastic.
i should feel somewhat pushed over the edge, possibly ready to start over.
but all i can feel is numb.
where will that get me?
do it the easy way.
"your blatant disrespect sickens me as much as it hurts me!
my room or lack thereof smells like a stale ashtray.
i'm done. you've gone WAY too far this time.
hope your friends are ready to fill my role.
BTW... i will be checking to see why i got the "your child's not in school" call again wednesday.
continuing! right in MY house and under my nose.
i'm done.
make your own rules, but you won't here.
i have nothing left to offer.
it's jeremy de ja vu minus the cops & birth certificate.
i wish you all the luck in the world and you'll always have my love.
i'm tired of fighting. i have nothing more to lend the situation.
tell yourself whatever you need to. you've called me a hypocrite and made my life hell.
perhaps your father has more to offer.
of course you didn't notice!
you're just skipping along doing whatever in the hell you want, oblivious to the rest.
i'm fighting for you to make good decisions.
it's all me, so get the hell away.
save yourself!
you WILL NOT stay here in MY house doing as you please.
it's that simple at this point.
hope it's all turning out as you hoped it would."
i should be emotional and drastic.
i should feel somewhat pushed over the edge, possibly ready to start over.
but all i can feel is numb.
where will that get me?