I NEED OUT OF THIS FUCKING HOUSE

i can't fucking take it.
*rips all my hair out*
*kicks and punches everything*

ARRRRRRGGGGGGGGGGGGGGHHHHHH!
i'm going to shoot all these mother fuckers.
all of you can fucking ROT.

*bold all that apply*

01. I have kissed someone of the same sex on the lips.  ....damn you drunken party games
02. I see/used to see a therapist.
03. I'm the youngest child.  ...only child bitches!
04. I am drawn to things associated with sadness. .
05. I love my gauged earrings.
06. I wear black eyeliner every day.
07. I am extremely influenced by ( Read more... )

days have gone, in hopes of being happier, but sadly that mission is impossible. everyday my mother expects me to wake up one morning and love myself, yet she can't admit to having any family emotion for me. i am completely non-existant to her, unless she's upset with me. michael from work told me i had a great chance with james, if he was really ( Read more... )

so today i was bored, and my mom and dad ended up fixing up the basement and everything, so it was uber-cool to know i could decorate "my area" of the basement, where my computer, tv, couches, matress, etc. is. and i was very excited when shirt and shellbey said they'd come help me. of course i invite the two punks over? haha. shirt brought some ( Read more... )

i'm starting to notice the more i hate on everyone else, the more i hate myself. i spend a good percent of my day bad-mouthing several people, and several things, all the while being completely jealous of it. the worst is family gatherings, everyone so smiley and enjoying life, while i'm slowly dying in the corner. not only that, but i've been ( Read more... )

im going to write this journal entry in the form of a poem

i woke up today
and ate a waffle
to the computer i went
and things were god awful

my pictures were gone
all one thousand and one
my dad tried to get them back
he couldnt.
so i cried a ton

i was in need of extreme therapy
so to the mall i went
and i shopped with much glee

i bought pretty shirts
a track ( Read more... )

this is weird. i think everybody's slowly starting to hate me. not good. i think i'm going to crawl up into a little ball and evaporate. because, you know, humans can evaporate and stuff.

friends are dumb. especially when they start ignoring me because they get a boyfriend. a really ugly, old, balding boyfriend. maybe i'm just jealous because i spend all my time waiting to hear from james, even though i KNOW nothing will ever happen between us, considering i found out his best friend hates me, so they'd just be weird. plus yesterday ( Read more... )

hmmmm sitting in the library, but what else do i do second period? besides stare at breanne. today i am apparently invited to go out with craig and lori after 2nd period, which is exciting? mmmmhhmmmm. i'm at a lost for words today, i want to talk, but i really have NOTHING to say. eh, it happens. first period was boring. yesterday my dad and i had ( Read more... )

( Read more... )