Ok so heres the deal, getting a group together on Monday afternoon to go to a coffee shop. The shop isnt far from HVCC so Im having people meet me at the valley at 2 and fallow over shortly after. If you want in gimme a call 588-1773 or just show up.

Just once in my fucking life I want to acomplish something thats not a fucking battle. I dont want to have to fight till exusghtion every time I need or want something, and sadly most of the time I find something less that I can settle for....yeah for once in my fucking life I want something to come easy for me why is that so fucking hard. Hahaha.

Finally feeling better. I have to take a step back and acknowledge the progress Ive made because most of the time it seems like nothings changed...but thats far from true. I still have a long way to go though, I also cant forget that. Ive got alot I could be working, should be working. Not just talking about school work either. But you know how it ( Read more... )

Im not doing well. I know what hurts me the most. Its my dreams, hopes, and imagination.

I know I have to stop doing this to myself. The question is do I have the guts to do what needs to be done to make it stop...Im all to aware of what Ill lose.

Im scared, more then Ive been scared in along time. Everything in my life is scaring the shit out of me.

Little to no sleep, may have fallen asleep on my desk for a little while. But all the same I feel pretty damn good. I missed chem lab, I meant to go but forgot the lab at home. It allowed me to organize the paper Ive been working on though. The chem test that I was already to fail only had one multiple choice question on the stuff I was so worried ( Read more... )

Ive changed. More so then I ever thought I could change and I assumed it was all for the good. The past week or so Ive realized that theres alot of stuff that I am or do that I would ever hate to be a few years ago. Im miles from where I was and it is in the good but when I focused on the things that needed desperate help I lost touch of alot of ( Read more... )

Thursday was pretty out, a little chilly but nice all the same. I stared to feel better then, the stress of my sister started to fade. Still be feeling progressively better since. My moms still being giving me alot of shit, bringing me down here and there. And then Friday in a group of friends I kinda let it all get to me, little stupid shit that ( Read more... )

Ok guys I need your help. To those of you I dont get to see on a regular basis: I have to get 50 surveys done for my final paper in philosophy class. The survey is under the cut, you can just leave it as anonymous but Im gonna screen comments anyways.

( Philosophical Survey )

So a group of us were gonna go sledding but due to weather and my complete lack of effort towards organizing anything that didnt happen But I still wanna go sleding, so Im thinking next monday around 3ish at the park near my house. So if you want in lemme know.