if you leave, take me along. anywhere is ok.

[slinkstarr]

i have to say that i really am finding it hard to give a shit about anything... at least today i am. todd just messaged me and i just didn't want to talk to him. here's the story with that. i emailed him when i came out to my mom and told him all about it, you know, since he was there when i figured it out i thought he might take a vested

Comments

backstabbers and the "oh yeah sure...we're friends...yep" theory

[writerdee]

I don't know if I should say anything or not...but I've talked to him once or twice over IM in the past few days, and it seems to me like he was just out of touch and is trying to fix things now. Maybe he thought that it would be best for all of us to distance ourselves for awhile...but then he realized that that was a really fucked up idea for all involved. *shrug* I dunno. I've never claimed to be a mindreader...and you guys always tell me that I'm too forgiving, so maybe that is all that this is. Still...let him know what the problem is...try and talk it out. Please? It bothers me to see the ones I care about in pain...
Love,
Denise

climbing over slippery slopes

[slinkstarr]

denise -
i really do see what you're saying, and yet... there's just this little part of me that says that todd only does those things because he has this terrible need to be seen as a "good person." and i feel bad for him that he feels like he has to justify everything he does somehow, but at the same time, i honestly, truly, really just find it awfully hard to care. i don't care about it. at least not enough to bother with talking right now. i just have too many other, closer things that i'm thinking about and that are bringing me down. and, if i know todd in the least, he would understand that. i just need to hide away..... - heather

letting the closet door close as the darkness invades

[writerdee]

If you need to hide out then I understand that, I suppose. I mean...*shrug*...I guess that's kinda what I've been doing all summer long anyway. I'll apologize for that, though...for not being around more for you guys to talk to. I know that you've needed it. As far as Todd goes...*shrug* it doesn't really matter to me what you do about him. Logically I know that he hasn't been the greatest friend to any of us over the past few months. Emotionally...I'm always going to be looking for a reason that he hasn't been, because I still remember when he was a great friend to all of us. I don't like to think that anyone can just change like that overnight. Maybe that's my own flaw, my own naivete...lol...and maybe I should just shut up....Denise

Re: climbing over slippery slopes

[rosemary_beth]

Dude,

I so don't care what he says anymore about stuff....I don't even know if I should believe any of the stuff that he did for us at the beginning of the year anymore....maybe it was all just away to make us look at him as a good person? I know that when he thought I was mad at him at school he did everything and anything to try and make it better, make me not think he was a bad person anymore...*shrug* There comes a point when worrying about something doesn't even matter anymore, you can't do anything to change what it is, so just move on.