well i found out tonight from ryan m that frank has no desire to be my friend anymore... which saddens me greatly. he said, in a Quote "malicious" tone, that he "didn't want me to hug him or talk to him with his girlfriend around." well... since that is OH I DONT KNOW - all the time... i see how it is going to be ( Read more... )

well. my life is about to change once more. tomorrow beth, dan, kay and i are going to see ben folds at clutch cargos... and i cannot even begin to straighten out all the emotions that i'm feeling. this is timed perfectly really... because i've been needing him again lately, what with being a pathetic jobless loser, nikki leaving me in the dust ( Read more... )

well the concert tonight at CAGE was all right... most of the bands were a little too scream-y for my tastes, and i think for most of the intelligent people there. a lot of little bratty metal kids were there. really irritating. but we hung out with mindy some, and good old alan p., who as beth put it, has turned into a "saginaw rat..." hahhah ( Read more... )

well that goddamned poem that i was trying to write quite a while ago is *still* not done... i don't think it ever will be... the piece of shiiiiiiit. actually it's a good poem. but it refuses to be done. beth and i went to see phil's band at CAGE last night. that was fun. i talked to marc too and he took 5 of the new zine issue to sell for me ( Read more... )

ok i'm depressed again... i was just downstairs with my rabbit and he is miserable i think.... i can't take him outside because it's been fucking raining again and he'll catch a cold or something... and i can't be downstairs in the basement all the time because i'm trying to get other things done... and really i feel terrible for him and i think ( Read more... )

.. that was the subject for the previous entry.

i have done something useful. i finished issue two of my zine, finally. for real. it is really actually done, and stapled and what not. now i need to mail it to people. i can't believe it's done. i finished it all at kinko's last night and god do i hate that place. i can't wait to be back at school where i can just steal all my copies. ( Read more... )

sigh.... well i went to hennessy's retirement party last night, even though i had made up my mind to hold my grudge and not go. but i was reading over some of my old (read - BAD) poetry in my high school journals, and i found the poem that i wrote for him when he had his heart attack... and i just thought i was going to cry... and i thought, ( Read more... )

AUGH. well. this is the first time i've been able to be online in like a week because our lousy isp earthlink decided to SUCK even more than they already did before. there were all these problems with the authorization server or some shit, and then there were other things... anyway. and even now i can only get online on my sister's computer; ( Read more... )

well i didn't get the fucking job at hallmark for some unknown goddamn reason. i don't understand why; i have lots of experience in retail. i think the woman who interviewed me was an idiot. she didn't even ask me hardly any questions. so i am still a jobless slob and with options nearly exhausted. i don't know what to do. i've put in TEN ( Read more... )