Deep Breath

Aug 21, 2005 01:44



 I deleted my entire Livejournal again.  Why?  I think because I was lieing again.  I've done that so much in my life.  I have been living so real lately.  I want to start over, and try this livejournal thing one more time.  If your reading this you might be like, OH GOD, but no really.  I truely desire the ability to look back on my livejournal and smile.  To remember the moment for what it was and how I handled it.  Not anger or passion blocking the moment.  I'll allow that to spark with the memory the article re-creates.  Honesty.  I want to improve.

The list of improvements:
  1. Continue not smoking
  2. Become stronger
  3. Love God
  4. Win her heart
  5. Tell her how I really feel
  6. Make good music
  7. Enjoy living

I've really been enjoying hanging out with Brenton lately.  Me and him have quite the friendship, I appreciate the years we've spent together and look foward to the crazy wrecklessness that is to come.

You... you know who you are.  I love talking to you.  I love spending time with you.  You make me happy on days crazy ladies rob me of 10 bucks and rocks break my windshield.  You compliment me on myself, you notice what most people don't notice.  I can be myself around you.  Wow, is the only word that comes to mind when we chill and believe me, I have many words to think of but I can't.

From this point on actions and decisions can make or break my goals.  Such is life, I look foward to faliure.  If I run into you, or hang our with you the person reading this entry somewhere along the line of this journey I'm about to embark on thank you.  Thank you for playing such a significant role in my life.  You may not realize it but you've probrally touched my life in a way you don't even know...

First step!  Wish me luck.
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