sometimes i think that the world is more bipolar than me. if at any way possible. everything seems to be changing around me. but i dont feel ike ive changed at all. i dont get it. oh and by the way, if any of you, for any particular reason think that all i do is complain, here ya go, just stop fucking reading, leave me alone, and if i want to ( Read more... )

well, it has been some weekend. i am now lonely for 8 days...kind of depressing. everything has been so distant lately. it seems like ive been here all alone and everyone is watching me, just to se what happens. i dont feel alone really, its just ...i dont really know how to explain it. but do i ever know how to explain how i feel? oh well. my ( Read more... )

i love making up words to songs. it makes you feel creative! you all should try this sometime. its funny how opposites attract, i love it. i am finaly done with shooting food from my throat. i feel 10 pounds lighter!!! i have successfully taught myself to knit. i really love it. something to keep my hands busy. my psychiatrist suggested it for my ( Read more... )

i dont know what to say, i just wanted to update.

ok just to let you all know about my life since i havent updated, since everyone cares so much...you know you do...heh. anyway, babysat today, sucked, i was cold and hungry and changed fun diapers, a true love of mine. ive got less than two months until i start back at school. im really excited about it. hopefully il figure out what im going to do ( Read more... )

haha! today has been fun! hahaha. i got my hair cuttedded. its shoooowt. i think i like it though im not quite sure. its the shortest ive ever had it. haha. i love you alex!!!! im glad you we get to hang out!! we will host a HALOWEEEEEEEEEEEEN PARTAAAY!! hah i wish we could!!! we need to find one to go to! well, this weekend should be good, and i ( Read more... )

i have everyone know that i am officially now smoke-free! it sucks, but i am so glad i have gotten this over with. i have had this nasty horrible cancer, hovering over my shoulders, and know, witht eh help of 40$ worht of it, i am getting rid of this nasty habit! you all should be proud of me and buy me things!!! hah-just kidding.alex, im glad we ( Read more... )

for once, i actually feel oblivious to everything around me. this week has ben pure hell for me. and i am learning to deal with it. i just want to thank someone and you know who you are, for listening to me. i know you always will listen, no matter what i have to say. ive needed that really bad this week, and im glad that you could be there for me ( Read more... )

ok reminder: never try to be friends with someone who hates you, and you just feel sorry for them! im ready to fucking kill someone. i hate myself right now. i hate everything around me today. everyone here is driving me crazy! i just want to be left alone~!!!!! why does anyone give a fuck about my business????fuck it.

i dont know how to act anymore. its like everything i try to do, its just contradicting itself...i want to just go aaway somewhere and cry for days...whatever. im tired of being treated like shit from so meany people and you know who you are. im so fucking tired of it.