"ooooh look at me, im starving for attention. blah blah blah blabbity blah blah. i have no life i live on livejournal blah blah blah. "......"im so cool i put other people down , blah blah blah, im better that everyone else blah blah blah"......grow up.

first off is over rated one or two words? and why do i have to ask? im sick, morgan hill is trying to kill me. i had the first asthma attack since like five years ago the other day. yup couldnt breath , had to go to the hospitol. not fun. funny how the turning blue asthmatic girl sitting in the lobby is always the LAST one to get helped. i could ( Read more... )

as i sat in the back seat of the car staring into the rear view mirror watching him cry in secret i suddenly had this overwhelming thought. it was a beautiful genuine moment that no one else saw but me. love will make you feel everything you've always wanted to feel and everything you've never wanted to feel. i remembered what it was like to feel ( Read more... )

so i was under the impression that when i spoke the managers at the Concord store that i had turned them down on the offer of Gilroy. apparantly that was very clear. even thought i said no they still scheduled me for training so i guess im goin to gilroy. it seems like the best move being that i hate roseville and ill get more money and when the ( Read more... )

tonite i went to Ikea with adam and helped him pick out his new butt plug timer. then we went to this etheopian resataurant called the Blue Nile in berkely. it was very quaint. our waitress was adorable and i want her to be mine so i can take her home and be her friend. she was so cute and friendly and etheopian . best waitress ever. it was my ( Read more... )

so is it shallow to like someone more when they dress better. i went shopping with this guy i used to date and he picked out a hot outfit mostly cuz i was there. after he put it on i kinda reconsidered dating him again. shallow? im just really attracted to guys with style and he has none, but if he got some maybe just maybe ... im a jerk . i cant ( Read more... )

so i went to this gay party on saturday night. any other time i usually would have said no but i was in a gay friendly mood so i wwent to the GAYIST party ever. if youve ever seen Queer As Folk, well it was like i was living that show. beautiful men everywhere talking shit and fighting over eachother. i was one of two females there. women are like ( Read more... )

i hate it here and i want to die. this place is sucking the life out of me.

tuesday afternoon - went to ikea with adam and derek- ate some salty sauce covered meatballs and quiche. - bought some freakin great pillows - 3 to be exact- watched adam have a girl moment over spending too much money- had a beer- convinced joanna to go to Coachella with me- sat on couch at dereks apartment while tha boys talked sports and oogled ( Read more... )

ive discovered something new and exciting . almost good to be true . it probably is. but i cant be sure yet . i hate the feeling of anticipation. but its sooo exciting at the same time. im comin home on the 27th of this month for those who care. and then im leaving again on april 28th. i was staring at a spot on the sidewalk listening to the sound ( Read more... )