Eulogy of the Living
I'm not here to seek absolution for something I did not do. I am here to speak a wordless decree.
Like honestly. How come the world freezes whenever someone has a problem. And yet, my problems are nothing. Like, i am willing to forget the fact that my life sucks, just to help out one person who is down for one small minute moment, But then the small chance that I can't fight back my demons, I am standing by myself, while the whole world goes on. I'm not gonna lie,if the basis of all my friendships connections are like this, then what the hell have I've been doing, I should of been dead along time ago. Where are the people that I can call friends, where are they when I am standing on the edge of life? Where is this so called "family", where are they when I am alone, locked up in my mind. I am always there for those I call "friends", but are they there for me. I guarantee you this, blood is thicker then water. That is my refuge from all this. This void of feelings. The ruins of a life. Then complete hopelessness this whole effort is. If it is truly the movement, then why haven't we moved anywhere. How is it that I have to break until some at least notices something wrong.
Sure, I tend to keep to myself, but because people don't want to speak with me. Just a greet, and that's it. I can have the worst day in my life, and all you have to say is "Hi", not noticing that some slight bit of me is feeling down. Being quiet gives one major advantage, you learn to be observant. You see the problems that people go through; you see the effort people put into something that maybe too minute for people to notice. And through that observation, you appreciate what they go through, what they did, who they are. you realize what they go through. and you get a new found respect for them. But clearly, the world cant handle a small bit of observation. Way to Conceited with their problems just to help out another person.
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I refuse to give my support to people who don't wanna support me. So I give you a countdown, If you read this note. then show it to the necessary people who you think you need to know this. In 82 days you will see what happens.
Like honestly. How come the world freezes whenever someone has a problem. And yet, my problems are nothing. Like, i am willing to forget the fact that my life sucks, just to help out one person who is down for one small minute moment, But then the small chance that I can't fight back my demons, I am standing by myself, while the whole world goes on. I'm not gonna lie,if the basis of all my friendships connections are like this, then what the hell have I've been doing, I should of been dead along time ago. Where are the people that I can call friends, where are they when I am standing on the edge of life? Where is this so called "family", where are they when I am alone, locked up in my mind. I am always there for those I call "friends", but are they there for me. I guarantee you this, blood is thicker then water. That is my refuge from all this. This void of feelings. The ruins of a life. Then complete hopelessness this whole effort is. If it is truly the movement, then why haven't we moved anywhere. How is it that I have to break until some at least notices something wrong.
Sure, I tend to keep to myself, but because people don't want to speak with me. Just a greet, and that's it. I can have the worst day in my life, and all you have to say is "Hi", not noticing that some slight bit of me is feeling down. Being quiet gives one major advantage, you learn to be observant. You see the problems that people go through; you see the effort people put into something that maybe too minute for people to notice. And through that observation, you appreciate what they go through, what they did, who they are. you realize what they go through. and you get a new found respect for them. But clearly, the world cant handle a small bit of observation. Way to Conceited with their problems just to help out another person.
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I refuse to give my support to people who don't wanna support me. So I give you a countdown, If you read this note. then show it to the necessary people who you think you need to know this. In 82 days you will see what happens.