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[sluaghpuddle]

Yesterday was not such a good day. My anxiety, racing thoughts and shaking was getting worse. Steven was a darling. He took the day off and spent it with me. We went for a walk in square by the library and around the little pond there. He took me to my (medical)doctor's appointment that I had already scheduled. I actually feel a bit better today

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[sluaghpuddle]

Thanks! The weird thing is, I really haven't been cycling, that I can tell. I was always primarily depressed, but occasionally had brief spouts of what looking back was mania (like when I thought I was possesed as a teenager, possibly) but I've not had the cycling back and forth between mania and depression that most people report. I've had severe depression, and anxiety/panic attack and then mixed episodes where I'm depressed and manic and everything all at once. My official diagnoisis is Bipolar1/mixed. For the longest time I thougth I just was depressed and had anxiety attacks until I went to a doctor who realized that the "panic attacks" I was having at that point in time weren't panic attacks because the lasted for days at a time (sometimes monthes) and that it was most likely a wierd form of mania. I've never really been able to place a clock to it, or any pattern.

[siegeengine]

yikes, that hernia sounds very uncomfortable. I hope you can get in quick to fix that so you'll feel better.