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You should cry in public
You should feel the tears fall down your face while you order your drinks from the waitress. Don’t try to explain. Don’t try to deny it. Take the space.
You should lean on your hand, and stare wistfully out the window at the parking lot and the cars and the sky and feel however you feel.
And if it makes you sad, you should cry ( Read more... )

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Remember
I am a creative powerhouse because I know how to love and be joy
And I know what it is to do that in the face of death
Loss
I know how to raise myself when those who were entrusted with my raising chose cruelty
To self
To others
And me

Remember
That it's for this reason that I have honed the skill of questioning everything
And being contradictive
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In the new year I want to never think about my weight
Or my hair
Or my skin

I want to stop giving energy to how I look

I want to pull back the forever obsession of how my career looks

How my house looks

I want to smile at strangers because I am happy to see them

I want to wear shorts and show my hairy legs and tank tops to show my hairy armpits

I want the ( Read more... )

I want to fall down a well of self love
I want to drown in acceptance
I want to wake laughing and cuddle myself to sleep
I want to live an enduring hug I want my 30s to be a long hallelujah
I want to breathe using all of my lungs and all of my tummy and all of my bottom and all of my legs and feet and toes
I want to be open again like a memory that ( Read more... )

This marriage thing has been a kick
Already
I mean the best way to discover who your real friends are
Is to catch who is asking to help
And who is saying oh I don't know if I can make it to this or that
Who is excited
Who is silent

Who you want to see there and who would cause you stress
And I'm blessed
Because I have long held contracts with people I ( Read more... )

I used to need to stay on red alert
My dream was to some day be able to address all the bells and whistles, all the urgent things

For that time, I had to focus on eating, and survive

And now I have no real problems
I am in a place of security
And you know what
I know now that addressing each flashing emergency light will kill me

So I withdraw my consent
I ( Read more... )

When cruelty becomes permissible as a means to any end, it becomes possible to every situation.

What do we think?

We think well, in some circumstance this is acceptable. But once it enters, hatred spreads and oscillates. Violence then becomes a means. It is considered, regarded.

It comes into reality.

What do we expect?

Racism for example. We have ( Read more... )