hmm, went 2 a concert 2day.it was rly good and it sounded the exact same live sos that was cool, every1 was staring at me and stuff but aw well. 1 fat lady like 30yrs. old came up 2 me and said "hey, i saw you get abused there a little, way to be yourself" and she put out her hand and i shook her hand. i guess she liked the fact i didnt leave cuz ( Read more... )

hmm today i am going 2 see a man that i love!!!!!!! well i dont rly love him but i think hes awesome and hes 1 of my idols, and i refuse 2 tell this stupid thing who it is because there are people who i dont want 2 know him cuz hes undiscovered so far and i dont want him 2 get popular.

other than that im doing nothing today, my cousin might be ( Read more... )

well, today was a horrible day indeed, nick lied 2 me and stuff and caused this whole big thing with ilana. why he would tell me those lies i will never understand, but it doesnt make a differance now.

another horrible thing that happened is that some1 is leaving me who i wasnt rdy for them 2 leave yet..havent even had the chance yet...it fucking ( Read more... )

well, today i did nothing, but then all of a sudden i did something! ..i hung out with ilana and nick and stuff, yeah it was fun.i had random bits of laughter and i couldnt ask a damn question but aw well.

and now im home, mother is sleeping and my sister is upstairs, so i am alone again. and i regret veing born so much. i honestly believe ( Read more... )

well, yesterday i found some stuff out that i didnt want 2, well i did but i wished it wasnt true, ilana has lied 2 me alot lately and i just cant take it anymore so i say goodbye to her..today is the last day me and her will be talking...and i know i hurt her and im sry for it but she shouldnt have lied 2 me all those times...

so,other than that ( Read more... )

um,yeah im sick of all this shit...i just dont understand why i go on, but i guess i have 2...al i know is i rly dont have a life, and i think im fine with not having a life. theres 2 much going on rite now though, and im 90% sure im moving.. and im glad, i dont wanna live here anymore.ugh, but then again i dont wanna go,what the hell is wrong with ( Read more... )

wow, uh, i dont rly have alot to say, yesterday i celebrated my birthday cuz i didnt wanna celebrate it on my birthday cuz im weird..we had the cake before we had dinner and uh, yeah i chose 2 have a rly weird birthday and i hated every second of it...i dont like celebrating anything, actually i dont feel like doing anything, but to celebrate being ( Read more... )

well lets see,main words of the day said 2 me ( Read more... )

life is life i guess....got my heart broken today

other than that nothing big happend...same as always.....i love her more than anything else in the world, and of coarse, im the last thing on her mind..she chooses 2 lie 2 me, oh yeah, im gunna move 2....i just need 2 get away from it all,theres nothing worth staying for...lauren was the reason for ( Read more... )

life fucking sucks...im home alone for like 6 days a week...i have no1 2 talk 2 no friends nothing,what i do have are the memories the thoughts and the dreams...