random thoughts ( Read more... )

firstly id like apologize for the recent trend towards mopey fag-esque posts. livejournal shouldnt let me make posts when im not in a good mood or otherwise not in my usual sunny disposition ( Read more... )

summers here, already found a job i know im going to hate.

taking an old friends advice and taking a step back and thinking long and hard about a lot of shit. problem is i think to much, over analyze, over interpret.

cant wait til im back in boone.

re-reading some irvine welsh.

smoking too many cigarettes.

well ive been home since sunday night. i miss boone, or rather the people there, some of them at least. some more than others. maybe its the same thing to miss the place and miss the people ( Read more... )

so i leave boone in two days. these couple days have actually been really good for me. ive had a lot of time to rest and figure some stuff out and work myself out a bit. i guess im ok with going home now, i still really dont want to... ive got my reasons. hopefully those few months will go fast and ill be back before i know it ( Read more... )

im officially moved out of the dorm.

i officially passed bio.

im officially exhausted and still have a paper to write.

i officially dont know what im gonna do with myself til sunday

...oh wait, im gonna drink alone.

...ps thats a joke.

thus ends the marathon of self loathing that has been this semester.

well i keep coming closer and closer to the realization that schools done. and it straight up just makes me sad, and it scares me. i leave here in roughly a week, and its like im leaving behind a chapter of my life and just putting it on pause. im going to miss so many people and theres going to be a lot of shit that is just going to be put on ( Read more... )

i just fucked immanuel kant's shit up.

...posthumously.

...take that.

...ass.

school work ARGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

so did i mention i really dont want to go home this summer. itts harder now that i know there are options.