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so i've been really serene lately its kinda crazy.
i never really thought i'd have a lapse back to being a kid again. i'm pet-sitting for my neighbors and while i wuz sitting i watched a little tv. they have boomerang the cartoon show that has all the classics this morning i saw dick dasterdly and muttley and wally gator, this evening i saw scooby doo and tom and jerry. while there i also played a game that wuz pretty hard. ur supposed to leave one golf tee on the board and i did it (after about 10 tries this morning i concured it this evening).
a few weeks ago i went to one of my brother's baseball game and there were swings...and i swung and it wuz so beautiful (besides the intense heat) that i jus floated back to elementary school when i used to swing all the time. no cares in the world. none of this drama everyday seems to bring to the table. drama like the stuff my parents bombard me with about my knee school/grades basketball and goin to the next level and all that.
yesterday my parents held me captive in their room to talk to me about it. i kno i can't work on the things i'd planned on doing this summer. i kno that ima have a huge roll on the team next year. i don't even kno if i can handle that just yet. i haven't had to be a leader since gosh 8th grade maybe. when they were finally done i ran away (to the top of the hill around the corner). i sat on the ground and cleared my mind for a bit and i looked up(its about 8:30) its still light out and the clouds are moving across the baby blue sky. it made me feel small b/c i knew that the world was moving and incredible speeds around a star in a galaxy apart of a massive universe with other galaxies that no one even knows about. lookin at the stars is the same way. light from balls of fire light years away and the light we see is old for all we kno the star may not even be there nemore. then again it could be that each of the trillion stars in the night sky is another galaxy with planets orbiting like ours. its its scary yet amazingly beautiful at the same time.
i don't kno wat's come over me but i may be growing up emotionally. i mean i'll technically be an adult in 3 months and a week (scary!)i might be losing my high enery/craziness. iono wat to think of this change...i just hope it isn't coming too fast.
i never really thought i'd have a lapse back to being a kid again. i'm pet-sitting for my neighbors and while i wuz sitting i watched a little tv. they have boomerang the cartoon show that has all the classics this morning i saw dick dasterdly and muttley and wally gator, this evening i saw scooby doo and tom and jerry. while there i also played a game that wuz pretty hard. ur supposed to leave one golf tee on the board and i did it (after about 10 tries this morning i concured it this evening).
a few weeks ago i went to one of my brother's baseball game and there were swings...and i swung and it wuz so beautiful (besides the intense heat) that i jus floated back to elementary school when i used to swing all the time. no cares in the world. none of this drama everyday seems to bring to the table. drama like the stuff my parents bombard me with about my knee school/grades basketball and goin to the next level and all that.
yesterday my parents held me captive in their room to talk to me about it. i kno i can't work on the things i'd planned on doing this summer. i kno that ima have a huge roll on the team next year. i don't even kno if i can handle that just yet. i haven't had to be a leader since gosh 8th grade maybe. when they were finally done i ran away (to the top of the hill around the corner). i sat on the ground and cleared my mind for a bit and i looked up(its about 8:30) its still light out and the clouds are moving across the baby blue sky. it made me feel small b/c i knew that the world was moving and incredible speeds around a star in a galaxy apart of a massive universe with other galaxies that no one even knows about. lookin at the stars is the same way. light from balls of fire light years away and the light we see is old for all we kno the star may not even be there nemore. then again it could be that each of the trillion stars in the night sky is another galaxy with planets orbiting like ours. its its scary yet amazingly beautiful at the same time.
i don't kno wat's come over me but i may be growing up emotionally. i mean i'll technically be an adult in 3 months and a week (scary!)i might be losing my high enery/craziness. iono wat to think of this change...i just hope it isn't coming too fast.