Once acquired, the habit of worrying seems hard to stop. We're raised to worry and aren't considered "grown up" until we perfect the art. Teenagers are told: "you'd better start worrying about your future". If your worries aren't at least as frequent as your bowel movements, you're seen as irresponsible, childish, aimless. That's a "responsible ( Read more... )

i quit birthcontrol, (just for awhile) it makes me cry often, it almost happened at work, but that was related to extreme stress. I also quit men (also just for awhile). I think I have problems recieving gifts from men. When my last boyfriend brought me flowers I yelled at him. I've delayed having the break up conversation, in favor of just ceasing ( Read more... )

ashley just applied for a full time job at this cafe/salon/art gallery. It's perfect two minutes from my house, and I make a great coffee wench. Wondering how much fun full time hours will be on top of my three shifts a week at the restaurant and my two classes. I've been told I'm insane, i really like the idea of being stupidly busy.

spinning... they just keep comming one after the other, how do i know which is more important than the other, is there any energy going into this anymore? or am i just on auto pilot following the directions? letting circumstance dictate my course, the uselessness of wondering about the risks you maybe should have taken. i thought i was in a ( Read more... )

Let’s face it: modern life is a shit storm and booze is the only umbrella without any holes in it ( Read more... )

you still haunt my thoughts
i love you.
it's useless.

i went out to the bar with with my new nieghbor, co-worker and feels like oldest friend and her super cool boyfriend. i remmember that time we got drunk together like all the others but he was living in the scussiest apartement on the craziest street with graff all over everything, the cat was going crazy then and now you have a swollen hand and ( Read more... )

dull aches.. i made it back to this country ( Read more... )

So exited to move into my new home with miss Sarah in Halifax and start the new year. Even more so than the feelings I have toward getting on the airplane to Swiss. It's comming fast and although it didn't take too long to get bored of good old Ottawa,I love you & I'll miss you terribly. So Departure Date is Aug 14th. I'm thinking of having some ( Read more... )

Great fun mixed with intense bouts of sadness. wondering about this upcoming trip. leaving the country to find what exactly? trying to figure out the meaning of family. the reasons i feel the need to bridge the gaps and make some sort of coherent whole. the purpose for this whole charade, the pleasantries that make up a string of people i will ( Read more... )